tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70389604348114311462024-03-13T15:01:03.639-07:00Sponge BrainLearning about myself and my surroundings...:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.comBlogger61125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-61318177546132968552023-11-05T06:42:00.000-08:002023-11-05T06:42:06.229-08:00Ramblings of a year gone by...<p><span style="color: #800180;"><span style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;">Goodness me, it's twenty twenty three!<br /><br />November already - madness!<br /><br />I have learnt a few lessons this year, been through some friendships and relationship-type-ish experiences. I have had to detach myself from some people who were draining my energy and exhausting my kindness. I have also had a person I really liked, detach from myself due to my own inconsistent, passive aggressive and unclear communication. I realised I can't just react with my flippant comments and expect people to stick around.<br /><br />HG is very good for reflecting and helping me see how my behaviour might affect others; my reactions and learned passive aggressiveness. It isn't hard to talk about or hear, but important to at least attempt to continue to work on oneself.<br /><br />Other people I considered friends have shown a side of themselves which doesn't align with my own beliefs and values in fully supporting others in expressing, exploring and ffs just BEING. Three people now who consider themselves "Christians" have edged over into what appears to be a brain-washing, misinformed view; sometimes involving conspiracies etc. It scares me and makes me sad, as well as losing faith in my ability to choose who to trust.<br /><br />Another thing I am baffled by is how many people still tell me they wish to have children. Today, we had a lay-in, some awesome s3xy time then went for a peaceful and beautiful hike, went for brunch on our way home and have enjoyed a Saturday afternoon doing basically whatever the hell we like (besides general adulting chores!). It's quiet, the cats are gorgeous and the perfect therapy after a busy week. I wouldn't wanna give that up haha! I guess each to their own but the future of the planet is looking pretty bleak so maybe consider adoption. Just sayin'. I obviously love and respect all my friends and fam who are being fantazmic parents to fun, awesome little minions! But I still don't get it.<br /><br />Anyhoozle, I am in the swing of things, working at my local leisure centre... I moved from lifeguarding to the Personal Training & teaching classes. It's very fun, if tiring!<br />I hope that once we have a house, we can set up a gym - oooh HG has started using his work gym - once one week and twice last week! Shhh don't jinx it! :)<br />It'll be nice to train myself and other people in our own gym - I am manifesting!<br /><br />Teaching classes is fun and it's nice when people personally thank/praise you and ask what other classes you teach. It's also really rewarding when PT clients tell you about their little wins and improvem</span></span><span style="color: #800180; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;">ents! I also ran a park bootycamp this summer and a fitness class for some teachers after school.<br /><br />I am learning dances (or should be!) for my dancepl3y instructor qualification.<br /><br />We are still living in the same basement apartment - 9yrs now! <br />In Canada for 10!<br /><br />I'll add a few pics and catcha l8r! TTFN </span></p><p><span style="color: #800180; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRlt8PouKbsBfX52ZahjC9TVmg2vg_op5iGCJEfAlCoR9SZhoFb7THfXITnI2BA57G8BiCDeR9awrU10vYfhzL7c-mh8jSxsi5VuT6ld02QvNdo9kMsULYhL6Da1Y0RgEMuUZA5T3UbmEN5xxQYwIwMKiLntMmt6aHmeQYoANwD55jTu92JkHFGeLj8gI/s4080/PXL_20231027_150156767.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3072" data-original-width="4080" height="241" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRlt8PouKbsBfX52ZahjC9TVmg2vg_op5iGCJEfAlCoR9SZhoFb7THfXITnI2BA57G8BiCDeR9awrU10vYfhzL7c-mh8jSxsi5VuT6ld02QvNdo9kMsULYhL6Da1Y0RgEMuUZA5T3UbmEN5xxQYwIwMKiLntMmt6aHmeQYoANwD55jTu92JkHFGeLj8gI/s320/PXL_20231027_150156767.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg95dcMpwHsmUG1bcvJVv49j6Ng9KgFtklrhMGO_EXf7iB8m3SO3GLDgB07JDKTwfVOoNOvX8ySMYbJDQplMshhopukq9dN0ZK9a_pWk37OuqoAC5bbt4UZCb8unSaDwOyjNtFGrSHDnarjwN0Ca1u6e9LTFFVmMmJUiXuCSAZHIQA08i9ykA2SGdNH8kI/s2096/PXL_20231012_215154589~2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2096" data-original-width="1404" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg95dcMpwHsmUG1bcvJVv49j6Ng9KgFtklrhMGO_EXf7iB8m3SO3GLDgB07JDKTwfVOoNOvX8ySMYbJDQplMshhopukq9dN0ZK9a_pWk37OuqoAC5bbt4UZCb8unSaDwOyjNtFGrSHDnarjwN0Ca1u6e9LTFFVmMmJUiXuCSAZHIQA08i9ykA2SGdNH8kI/s320/PXL_20231012_215154589~2.jpg" width="214" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiij4i0PHXn3wMggtwzqFimYh2icsGN-winmp1JyUsqoCnsPU5RkSdxCuQugKei8CuQRToSAsln9R0ge3p4pV9HjNm3ab2KWOqjRG2GCgc-7vdtAKR0UWPhRsTYX41elyyVj7R7VSS1OkCcLZ9aqB_tz5qLNN4hzD0_4JWACeKFfPNC-NDowGIa0yIhyf0/s3419/PXL_20231010_173218453.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3419" data-original-width="3072" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiij4i0PHXn3wMggtwzqFimYh2icsGN-winmp1JyUsqoCnsPU5RkSdxCuQugKei8CuQRToSAsln9R0ge3p4pV9HjNm3ab2KWOqjRG2GCgc-7vdtAKR0UWPhRsTYX41elyyVj7R7VSS1OkCcLZ9aqB_tz5qLNN4hzD0_4JWACeKFfPNC-NDowGIa0yIhyf0/s320/PXL_20231010_173218453.jpg" width="288" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi60yhHMTUSwnvvz24kujtvAQ8b7D9zT9XlQjzWW1Q-9weLEblsJ1Gb_o7YaKXkL1vMXHCndcVSjZ_H7Lg_ONEV4qteEotQwfOnifbfLHLN603Kbsf_VKcu_V1m6u_XcT5n-FhxkW-hKxnccwQ92HnLbYC3Izfh8_uf3NyTvEebMTBRcKK2KWCXHtOLOxg/s1736/PXL_20231007_181124132~2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1736" data-original-width="1346" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi60yhHMTUSwnvvz24kujtvAQ8b7D9zT9XlQjzWW1Q-9weLEblsJ1Gb_o7YaKXkL1vMXHCndcVSjZ_H7Lg_ONEV4qteEotQwfOnifbfLHLN603Kbsf_VKcu_V1m6u_XcT5n-FhxkW-hKxnccwQ92HnLbYC3Izfh8_uf3NyTvEebMTBRcKK2KWCXHtOLOxg/s320/PXL_20231007_181124132~2.jpg" width="248" /></a></div>My friend Barbs from South Africa/UK :)<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvnMMKFpucGuS-g1bwWeISYVTcJyXw1Xua7f2MKeKUdOolEzxkEJFeB4-lYxlSXoKrezc1UGXmkdFYTXKoBWJiM3uD9f2C0BgP5OWzKXrAYnbzm3vWrRGLkQFvNvn1FFX0HNSfUQQkCARqnNsGk3hK07WmZiPya-TuDaYqJZzP1qfbsaKIybgdybY0w5E/s4080/PXL_20231014_143335620.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4080" data-original-width="3072" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvnMMKFpucGuS-g1bwWeISYVTcJyXw1Xua7f2MKeKUdOolEzxkEJFeB4-lYxlSXoKrezc1UGXmkdFYTXKoBWJiM3uD9f2C0BgP5OWzKXrAYnbzm3vWrRGLkQFvNvn1FFX0HNSfUQQkCARqnNsGk3hK07WmZiPya-TuDaYqJZzP1qfbsaKIybgdybY0w5E/s320/PXL_20231014_143335620.jpg" width="241" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5DZwe-XVqU2yDWQrF09H0sp-2wl4_S05mdKInRp6aGZeOTRYNFnq9Fxrph2DDpHr_g0ZC4JlfaNZgWoSptaJEhzV_FPbLLKfhpo30dFHMnLr2hdXbuzMuS8eo6lZuxjRolqvM-mSY8i3GGTrJnqmV7tU0qqGxpPQXtYuhuzOpM-LuTkk0Xrg46VjxTE8/s3648/PXL_20231020_201812561.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3648" data-original-width="2736" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5DZwe-XVqU2yDWQrF09H0sp-2wl4_S05mdKInRp6aGZeOTRYNFnq9Fxrph2DDpHr_g0ZC4JlfaNZgWoSptaJEhzV_FPbLLKfhpo30dFHMnLr2hdXbuzMuS8eo6lZuxjRolqvM-mSY8i3GGTrJnqmV7tU0qqGxpPQXtYuhuzOpM-LuTkk0Xrg46VjxTE8/s320/PXL_20231020_201812561.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>I love rowing!<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwXTfzSgrANEL_sSdTku0jg-fATJjHROa7URXmXrgDB1V872sPghnx3WyEnUO6QiDgplueS05_-ogQP8R_mc1x4P3mXn_WibCykRBilJ0lrvTjChgStNojj4PVsmG4ftCJYEfylY_cTx5CW1PcaDQfgol-uVM0yki09z4A8ipVCuQwcIhn-DWW1BuZ8-s/s1436/Snapchat-372892729.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1436" data-original-width="808" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwXTfzSgrANEL_sSdTku0jg-fATJjHROa7URXmXrgDB1V872sPghnx3WyEnUO6QiDgplueS05_-ogQP8R_mc1x4P3mXn_WibCykRBilJ0lrvTjChgStNojj4PVsmG4ftCJYEfylY_cTx5CW1PcaDQfgol-uVM0yki09z4A8ipVCuQwcIhn-DWW1BuZ8-s/s320/Snapchat-372892729.jpg" width="180" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCroF8Xxt4walElJTorx0Abj2L_jsYsTEzLaMYjZ7WOz_rVcO8X0tzmIf3kRD_LM8lgee41-LhE5Tl0l6oYP1GLQzbZvvisc1OXmW_2fCrHGomVHBnrv0y4qXPeQXje3gwuT7s_ReYOSFp693bS1KaWWGKEDxjlBJX0QhGi_LNpX6_P5JSp1pZFC1QZzQ/s4080/PXL_20231025_231537207.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3072" data-original-width="4080" height="241" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCroF8Xxt4walElJTorx0Abj2L_jsYsTEzLaMYjZ7WOz_rVcO8X0tzmIf3kRD_LM8lgee41-LhE5Tl0l6oYP1GLQzbZvvisc1OXmW_2fCrHGomVHBnrv0y4qXPeQXje3gwuT7s_ReYOSFp693bS1KaWWGKEDxjlBJX0QhGi_LNpX6_P5JSp1pZFC1QZzQ/s320/PXL_20231025_231537207.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0 0 0 40px; padding: 0px;"><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoUfV4X1yl2pBXMK5DQdXLchMykOIg6YIMowuWK2yqzakoJJh6gp3yaPlov4V50xFLjjFK9z_m5g1kwgC9XGw6zedByHiuZZvhnoV3UkKZn6i8Gw87rKtugRUwjiR39h6XJxudg59G6ZA5zfv_JateuPBeVrWaBllkKmZ_Via8aWedNs7R231UOPTo74w/s3648/PXL_20231028_143207340.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2736" data-original-width="3648" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoUfV4X1yl2pBXMK5DQdXLchMykOIg6YIMowuWK2yqzakoJJh6gp3yaPlov4V50xFLjjFK9z_m5g1kwgC9XGw6zedByHiuZZvhnoV3UkKZn6i8Gw87rKtugRUwjiR39h6XJxudg59G6ZA5zfv_JateuPBeVrWaBllkKmZ_Via8aWedNs7R231UOPTo74w/s320/PXL_20231028_143207340.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p></p></blockquote><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQ7yH3U_nKAw820veMWEGAoLjfN2D1v59Uc7jZ4_BUkOHBJUoB2nLL1H8qAahqfN0aRHw6p7zAOfsabtgGLPOwlvfypvyDQqZ1ZI1ehcCzHnZfYkaMOxg5PNGULOnC_CaNNbbJd2iRK9i7AdfjYCzNY05BERiTgSHfTUE9ohu6CsrupOewp-QbAs_afoo/s3840/PXL_20231031_173716762.TS_exported_21000.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3840" data-original-width="2160" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQ7yH3U_nKAw820veMWEGAoLjfN2D1v59Uc7jZ4_BUkOHBJUoB2nLL1H8qAahqfN0aRHw6p7zAOfsabtgGLPOwlvfypvyDQqZ1ZI1ehcCzHnZfYkaMOxg5PNGULOnC_CaNNbbJd2iRK9i7AdfjYCzNY05BERiTgSHfTUE9ohu6CsrupOewp-QbAs_afoo/s320/PXL_20231031_173716762.TS_exported_21000.jpg" width="180" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXAPiFs6-awnouk20kr9gzP66MBv7DGMTmxbM8KGmAipe-bX-b54era-RRt1-0iyMTDaLxAX4dR_K56tygN374WlaK-LXzyWbrK6IwMIc5oH0uLoaFn7wh5UzoP5ESf80QWsJdzqQVM00YdgBcF5m1KU9qdbsrp8zMJffAOrZnbimFDgyinyMV5TRLzQY/s3648/PXL_20231104_142658741.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2736" data-original-width="3648" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXAPiFs6-awnouk20kr9gzP66MBv7DGMTmxbM8KGmAipe-bX-b54era-RRt1-0iyMTDaLxAX4dR_K56tygN374WlaK-LXzyWbrK6IwMIc5oH0uLoaFn7wh5UzoP5ESf80QWsJdzqQVM00YdgBcF5m1KU9qdbsrp8zMJffAOrZnbimFDgyinyMV5TRLzQY/s320/PXL_20231104_142658741.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><span style="color: #800180; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><p></p><p><span style="color: #800180;"><span style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;"><br /><br /></span></span></p><p><span style="color: #800180;"><span style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></span></p><p><span style="color: #800180;"><span style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></span></p><p><span style="color: #800180;"><span style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;"><br /><br /><br /></span><br /></span><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-46651576831540176772021-11-19T19:22:00.003-08:002021-11-19T19:34:20.222-08:00The Other End of 2021<p><span style="font-size: medium;"> Hey Friends,<br /><br />It's November! I just checked and my last post was in January.<br />Funny to think I didn't have a clue what might occur.<br /><br />I was working as a Lifeguard at the new Rec Centre, that much is true.<br />I remembered the things I hadn't been keen on last time I did that job, 20+yrs ago!<br /><br />We were advised the Fitness Centre (gym) needed 'Assistant Floor Staff', so I and a couple of other lifeguards volunteered.<br /><br />I soon remembered what I loved about fitness; the supervisor of the fitness centre is European and could envision me teaching classes again etc. It was so uplifting!<br /><br />When we closed again in March, I used the time to study for my Personal Trainer Specialist certification and started training a couple of friends for practice. When we returned to the Rec Centre in July, I was on personal trainer rate instead of AFF. I have covered a HIIT class when someone was unwell, which was fun! I have also taught 2 of 4 of my practice classes for my current course and am already being lined up for future classes.</span></p><p><span style="font-size: medium;">Sadly, my lovely, supportive German supervisor isn't staying (we are having to be vaccinated against Covid and it isn't in her beliefs), but I intend to keep her as my mentor. Her replacement, Thomas, is someone I have enjoyed working evenings with and will do a most excellent job.<br /><br />I also started a 6 months Fitness & Nutrition Expert Certification(s) course.<br />My deadline is January, but I would love to have it done by Christmas!<br /><br />At the same time as starting the course, I started the Fit Chicks Transformation Challenge!<br />28 days - although we went away on the 26th day so wasn't as rigid, but didn't have treats until the challenge was officially over! This has helped me find a routine and better understanding of working out. Also learning and working with experienced PTs is the best thing ever!! I am feeling good and getting stronger!<br /><br /></span></p><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;">We had a fantastic holiday road trip up to Wawa and back to Manitoulin Island, our magical happy place! </span></div><p></p><p><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqw8-f9AwYMsIR-V6KfjKLGkY4GIq4sTygXMyf4PXFHbdDh2uf7uM-5KzVNcMZZ64wG8sHEG7DGE31GMqgdRNtONC_6rUUlfX2j6eR8p4wHGGV-faQvup-YxzT4dpG0tExWTWCT6Kz6nc/s2731/PXL_20211020_192904694.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2731" data-original-width="1658" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqw8-f9AwYMsIR-V6KfjKLGkY4GIq4sTygXMyf4PXFHbdDh2uf7uM-5KzVNcMZZ64wG8sHEG7DGE31GMqgdRNtONC_6rUUlfX2j6eR8p4wHGGV-faQvup-YxzT4dpG0tExWTWCT6Kz6nc/w242-h400/PXL_20211020_192904694.jpg" width="242" /></span></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Floor Staff<br /><br /></span></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-size: medium;"> </span><p><span style="font-size: medium;">In other news, we acquired a kitty - one I had spotted in someone's back garden; I knocked on the front door and the man handed me a wee Pud'n. So that's her name.<br /><br />Midnight was living in the scrapyard of our upstairs neighbour a month or so after Pud'n arrived. He is still quite skittish but soooo affectionate! He had parasites from eating the crap from the garbage.<br /><br />All three cats have had a fair share of meds recently! Pud'n had her kitty hysterectomy on Monday. They have become such fantastic friends! <br />Poor Puss is just grumbled by their presence!</span></p><p><span style="font-size: medium;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAn3FQJC3yNwVbp4R2QAgJGZ4C8dov1gbC29dHe9qW9STxCr7RxE4vdff9YEMjyAcabRabYImgfSfD-fNNs7s4phP-PbltnfCD9iTM_kxiRjid3-eZwhQ-M66-QcsPHH08o7siwoLN4_A/s4032/PXL_20211029_120231387.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="311" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAn3FQJC3yNwVbp4R2QAgJGZ4C8dov1gbC29dHe9qW9STxCr7RxE4vdff9YEMjyAcabRabYImgfSfD-fNNs7s4phP-PbltnfCD9iTM_kxiRjid3-eZwhQ-M66-QcsPHH08o7siwoLN4_A/w243-h311/PXL_20211029_120231387.jpg" width="243" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnjX8gDvtObLK-1lzi4_j7ZF2yFLLmB7n6xJYF5_DVHxYt7X18uCFKT4egI6BrVGZfzpNUSgqe9EijOzdxUiuMD6cXocB-kjzPnMv8FskdvZd-FAgqS7xai2PdwEct2eyP27LDp03KdRY/s4032/PXL_20211119_191732044.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="307" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnjX8gDvtObLK-1lzi4_j7ZF2yFLLmB7n6xJYF5_DVHxYt7X18uCFKT4egI6BrVGZfzpNUSgqe9EijOzdxUiuMD6cXocB-kjzPnMv8FskdvZd-FAgqS7xai2PdwEct2eyP27LDp03KdRY/w230-h307/PXL_20211119_191732044.jpg" width="230" /></a></span></p><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNMV1JClaO7Zwa0PVXnKUtb8XgpwjSTO4rO954SjyysiBwjsZpRExUBRensYGBDNWoq4MAmwGwVRPl9FP48JW1KkSFanaobgtmmhH5v6qUapuU9RiXOsA6-TW0RrDmlX1syDxt6RJvlGE/s3264/PXL_20211117_005524741.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2448" data-original-width="3264" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNMV1JClaO7Zwa0PVXnKUtb8XgpwjSTO4rO954SjyysiBwjsZpRExUBRensYGBDNWoq4MAmwGwVRPl9FP48JW1KkSFanaobgtmmhH5v6qUapuU9RiXOsA6-TW0RrDmlX1syDxt6RJvlGE/s320/PXL_20211117_005524741.jpg" width="320" /></a> </span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQl6__9WmWzZdNWwlXHwDQOVfepGZeTE9yY5NmvuiZPmg6o6kLKUrCW8etFNIdm6eoWJdjzR93P8f3pZyO4PMNtJmqLxU-E11UVsIfZYykP5HQ-n2q4ep41o8xnM5Fey7km6XCkbq27h4/s4032/PXL_20211119_131204474.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQl6__9WmWzZdNWwlXHwDQOVfepGZeTE9yY5NmvuiZPmg6o6kLKUrCW8etFNIdm6eoWJdjzR93P8f3pZyO4PMNtJmqLxU-E11UVsIfZYykP5HQ-n2q4ep41o8xnM5Fey7km6XCkbq27h4/s320/PXL_20211119_131204474.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;">It has been 3yrs since I had chemotherapy!<br />My hair is doing well; nice and curly with bouce.<br />The chemo curl ringlets are slowly getting the snip!</span></div><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfXxl9zuJ74Wcj2XFgvfRbixw8paS5KGiGZD_T3rVNRI0msPVtWceCIhnzh-umcpf8u05yITPp8tL3VN9NZMTuyl0ZQ0hzyC4slWNNmq5EWpCU9V_5XxgWKjYDjbUTkCqen23099CeO7s/s4032/PXL_20211024_125435654.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfXxl9zuJ74Wcj2XFgvfRbixw8paS5KGiGZD_T3rVNRI0msPVtWceCIhnzh-umcpf8u05yITPp8tL3VN9NZMTuyl0ZQ0hzyC4slWNNmq5EWpCU9V_5XxgWKjYDjbUTkCqen23099CeO7s/s320/PXL_20211024_125435654.jpg" width="240" /></span></a></div><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2cK_RlEdzXltOWPwEcWKV_hCrBTdsKHcNYlmb9n4vEPH_b1IO64MLnLu3Loxba8n1yAa4vdg3fNhPQRbbl_9T-LoOqWc9RPMrSvgXvkicaXyRH6FTLa-WcHzUA-897okHR3u2s11a5O8/s3264/PXL_20211024_125426013.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3264" data-original-width="2448" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2cK_RlEdzXltOWPwEcWKV_hCrBTdsKHcNYlmb9n4vEPH_b1IO64MLnLu3Loxba8n1yAa4vdg3fNhPQRbbl_9T-LoOqWc9RPMrSvgXvkicaXyRH6FTLa-WcHzUA-897okHR3u2s11a5O8/s320/PXL_20211024_125426013.jpg" width="240" /></span></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-95rZH2_dveF4E2Geo2ZqC6TF2ha6C7JLlycFAGXz7UOm36moWqvD96PjfJTigu9EAQlMdpqMoOCqMQ_-vjfCzaQAVPjYsP33O9mJwM6WKcwPO6Q-p-yEp_oSZ8wwGx4b2X-382eytTg/s4032/PXL_20211004_173328734.PORTRAIT.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-95rZH2_dveF4E2Geo2ZqC6TF2ha6C7JLlycFAGXz7UOm36moWqvD96PjfJTigu9EAQlMdpqMoOCqMQ_-vjfCzaQAVPjYsP33O9mJwM6WKcwPO6Q-p-yEp_oSZ8wwGx4b2X-382eytTg/s320/PXL_20211004_173328734.PORTRAIT.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Pud'n </span></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /><br /></span><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhX55ZxbfEmpBsKL7oznySABspUi6ljyUhXG4WlYSSWSnrBCNsI_q8gDMzfPB8G0ne_EKzmDJfuHuxUGNIXC756UxRj0JleHKHGnj1vhD7467yp8UXevjfMbShmj4WYE5ATC6Pzuvd13TM/s4000/IMG_1612.JPG" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="2945" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhX55ZxbfEmpBsKL7oznySABspUi6ljyUhXG4WlYSSWSnrBCNsI_q8gDMzfPB8G0ne_EKzmDJfuHuxUGNIXC756UxRj0JleHKHGnj1vhD7467yp8UXevjfMbShmj4WYE5ATC6Pzuvd13TM/s320/IMG_1612.JPG" width="236" /></span></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Jumping for Joy!</span></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /><br /><br />OK, my course is awaiting me. I will try to write again before 2022 is upon us!<br /><br />But no promises! TTFN <br /></span><br />PS We also got a new car in May :) and my lil whip went to someone who loves her!<br /><br />:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-65841172139362061802021-01-23T20:13:00.000-08:002021-01-23T20:13:48.053-08:00Two Thousand and Twenty One!<p><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;"> Good evening.<br /><br />Here I am, still plodding away and working on myself blah de blah!<br /><br />I had some unexpected time off - lockdown/employer covid testings etc. so amongst making edibles, I started trying Transcendental Meditation - 20mins twice a day. This seems time consuming but I just had to squeeze it in. Since being back at work this week, I haven't always managed it twice a day and sometimes just 10mins instead of 20mins.<br /><br />It feels nice - my mind feels quite peaceful for it!<br /><br />Alongside meditation, I have been doing Yoga With Adriene's 30 day January challenge - Breath. I'm in a little supportive chat group so it's nice to share it!<br /><br /><br /><br />Besides this.... I have started writing a book. Marian Keyes started offering tips and guides and prompts to help people take steps towards writing a novel!! So mine is about a teen living in a children's/care home.<br /><br /><br /></span></p><p><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;">Other book ideas I have are around sex and sexual expectations, experiences etc.<br />Guys seem clueless and/or reluctant to spend the time on a woman. I want to write erotica too.<br />Also about the splurging of photos of children before they can even understand or consent to what that means. Raising children - the benefits of spoiling them with nature over 'things'.</span></p><p><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-S2y6F_uwn_pfi4OerUz5MGgIRaZbRFY9ZqpFUuucEDR9VJRk9soTvz9HC9oWvfUl9jCKyM9id3z5CTdoQ4_A6YN9Zlis-ks6BuYxvKn0RWT9UVMuqPgdIGt2OnF2cXg7SM4-rsPCdPY/s2047/PXL_20210123_204843416.MP.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2047" data-original-width="1488" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-S2y6F_uwn_pfi4OerUz5MGgIRaZbRFY9ZqpFUuucEDR9VJRk9soTvz9HC9oWvfUl9jCKyM9id3z5CTdoQ4_A6YN9Zlis-ks6BuYxvKn0RWT9UVMuqPgdIGt2OnF2cXg7SM4-rsPCdPY/s320/PXL_20210123_204843416.MP.jpg" /></span></a></div><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;">Anyhoo, Happy New Year!! What a crazy ole time to be alive! </span></span></div><p><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica; font-size: medium;">Times of crowds and festivals and relaxed gatherings seem forever ago!<br /><br />On top of Y&M I am trying to read/write in the mornings and avoid looking at my phone before 7am (on a work day).<br /><br />It's a process! :)<br /><br /><br />In other news.....<br /><br /></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIux1NbjIoVXwZdMAzQjmOacx3duCmpkqsH6iDuVl5ikEXC68BHLgVOtl54mN8hcAqxVbdE7ZbwmEneSmf-jtU7uOeuEbmV80J1Q0ZCUX9ztE-2gSJ4N1KG9DSDFDQzNiC0YCc7H9d2oU/s2284/PXL_20210123_165202516.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2144" data-original-width="2284" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIux1NbjIoVXwZdMAzQjmOacx3duCmpkqsH6iDuVl5ikEXC68BHLgVOtl54mN8hcAqxVbdE7ZbwmEneSmf-jtU7uOeuEbmV80J1Q0ZCUX9ztE-2gSJ4N1KG9DSDFDQzNiC0YCc7H9d2oU/s320/PXL_20210123_165202516.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;">My hair is growing!!</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMCHz2_icl28sRepBG9-xm7JureTSf2fEf3z1j7pn3Oqavr7xt_eob6OhxPD11JGb86LipTWPtyPCoefZFvLg5qxvMBfs96IH3D89E2dnrE7_DmBPQre8Y4ibZQCNNzcs5g3FaMdLS2mE/s4032/PXL_20210122_113736933.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMCHz2_icl28sRepBG9-xm7JureTSf2fEf3z1j7pn3Oqavr7xt_eob6OhxPD11JGb86LipTWPtyPCoefZFvLg5qxvMBfs96IH3D89E2dnrE7_DmBPQre8Y4ibZQCNNzcs5g3FaMdLS2mE/w480-h640/PXL_20210122_113736933.jpg" width="480" /></a><br />Shovelling this week!<br /><br /><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4wNn58KaB6pJIfFVcYhXJ5qAffA01hVFuImSR2KxYbGzQC8EdIS1Cu8nQZIsVxYauFi9F_q6s6rtPCyFrs0NTO4769ASjnqriStTyKIGwaDAbhXMZNcFFoxAxm0NzM0VflnrhpnRWMEE/s4032/PXL_20210123_214144745.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4wNn58KaB6pJIfFVcYhXJ5qAffA01hVFuImSR2KxYbGzQC8EdIS1Cu8nQZIsVxYauFi9F_q6s6rtPCyFrs0NTO4769ASjnqriStTyKIGwaDAbhXMZNcFFoxAxm0NzM0VflnrhpnRWMEE/w640-h480/PXL_20210123_214144745.jpg" width="640" /></a><br />Pretty sky on our walk earlier.<br /><br /><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAQi1lqRTG1_LfEPlZxkwiH-3zU7vMWK1nY0EHWcGxEFphfqSoHNc5PEoSnsRvvU5k_QHl0c2vFsx_SSDjUYBeZFonecI68ds7cZicbWZMLXMJZBO0KY1S7xjDUUCVnMJHOhFBcFkjhNE/s1285/PXL_20210116_162105055_exported_110907_1610815847281.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1285" data-original-width="946" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAQi1lqRTG1_LfEPlZxkwiH-3zU7vMWK1nY0EHWcGxEFphfqSoHNc5PEoSnsRvvU5k_QHl0c2vFsx_SSDjUYBeZFonecI68ds7cZicbWZMLXMJZBO0KY1S7xjDUUCVnMJHOhFBcFkjhNE/s320/PXL_20210116_162105055_exported_110907_1610815847281.jpg" /></span></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #134f5c; font-family: helvetica;">I love yoga!<br /><span style="font-size: large;"><br />Bye for now, friends!</span></span></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><p></p>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-83405355276610062042020-10-11T15:56:00.005-07:002020-10-11T16:02:44.780-07:00October Rambles<p> I sometimes think about how much a working parent has to do and I am... firstly baffled anyone would choose to take that on...! But secondly, I think about them having less time to do - anything - specifically "work" on themselves. This term "doing the work" is cropping up a lot lately. Which makes breeding/having children a fantastic distraction from working on yourself - and great for people who see it as 'what they are supposed to do'. Why work on yourself when you can just have kids and pass your trauma reactions, anxieties, coping mechanisms, etc. onto them?<br /><br /><br />As I drift through my life, I am bumping into (thanks to the Google/IG algorithms I'm sure) childfree stuff, and I follow a childfree coach (Holly) who is from USA but is living in Norway with her wife for a year. Holly has started a book club and I the book we are reading is quite thought triggering. Great specific advice for journaling - the most important action in the morning, when your subconscious and conscious wake up and are in their OPTIMAL CONDITION.<br /><br />I don't have a morning routine and once again I'm being told it's what we need in order to operate from our 'peak state' - alongside having time away from your regular environment. I am feeling a longing for some time with me - maybe take a drive and visit a friend this week. <br /><br />I am 39, I feel like I should have this sussed. I don't drink coffee and that seems to be most people's 'morning routine'. Followed by a poop! 💩<br /><br />My mornings consist of a variation of... bowel movements (1-3x between 4am and 9am), much meandering, often making HG's lunch and seeing him off, sorting bins on bin day, a work out before 10:30am, yoga, meditation, phonecalls, scrolling on my phone, chatting/typing to ppl on my phone. This is on the days that I am not working but HG (I currently have extra time because I cut back 2 jobs to make time for new, 3rd job, which is delayed due to new centre not being ready). On days we're both off, I have even less routine but we usually get outside for a little walk/hike. We'll often wake and have snuggles/sex on a weekend; it's so nice when nobody has to go/be anywhere. Then HG will game, I'll potter - housework, feed us, make a mess, clean up!<br />We'll play Magic the Gathering and hang out/watch TV.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />So I just read that your favourite colour describes your personality... <br />What is your favourite colour and why?<br />How do you feel about it?<br />Write it down and put I Am at the front.<br /><br /><b>Purple: </b>Deep, dark, warm<br /><br /><b>Turquoise: </b>Fun, bright & vibrant<br /><br />I am deep<br />I am dark<br />I am warm<br />I am fun<br />I am bright<br />I am vibrant<br /><br />I don't actually disagree with these.<br /><br />Let me know if you try it too :D</p><p><br /></p><p>How does anyone know what they are doing? <br />Life flies by so fast!</p>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-50137732583443141042020-09-29T12:52:00.004-07:002020-09-29T12:53:09.937-07:00Covid - Wave II (actually nothing about C-19).<div class="separator"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: x-large;">It's October in 2 days. </span></div><p><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br />The munchkin I look after turns 4yrs on 1st October. I wonder what her world will look like in 20, 30, 40yrs time.... I hope to know her for many of them.</span></p><p><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDVwkOD2mZElmSeUVd1f0GjzvXbRSUqFrC-iNsnK_JcuWctsSMtcQOu3XjpdPP6k4WcXEw-T2WPriiyr0vBzd-kdlpwZsrRaksdCy7cUW_12IjteB1RPR5LnrCUCy3vYvKXykp4DU0ojI/s4032/PXL_20200927_201153943.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="241" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDVwkOD2mZElmSeUVd1f0GjzvXbRSUqFrC-iNsnK_JcuWctsSMtcQOu3XjpdPP6k4WcXEw-T2WPriiyr0vBzd-kdlpwZsrRaksdCy7cUW_12IjteB1RPR5LnrCUCy3vYvKXykp4DU0ojI/w321-h241/PXL_20200927_201153943.jpg" width="321" /></a> </span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCFDeJ2W9_yF_2J56zGfpCPnUwz7h6njT2oIOabZ72Ip-hzAvkrGwQKWb4e9N_JNl5m1Yy91sCJFC1N-pJfs7t6zNnTpDAmPcx3dNu3V2_6ch6e1SOpfoCl5S_a5NTAybwL-OmrPVhUrE/s3264/PXL_20200927_201622269.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: x-large; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3264" data-original-width="2448" height="245" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCFDeJ2W9_yF_2J56zGfpCPnUwz7h6njT2oIOabZ72Ip-hzAvkrGwQKWb4e9N_JNl5m1Yy91sCJFC1N-pJfs7t6zNnTpDAmPcx3dNu3V2_6ch6e1SOpfoCl5S_a5NTAybwL-OmrPVhUrE/w184-h245/PXL_20200927_201622269.jpg" width="184" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /><br /><br />Here is a leaf I caught, Katy Bowman stylie!<br /><a href="https://www.nutritiousmovement.com/" target="_blank">https://www.nutritiousmovement.com/</a><br /><br /></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1_K51E0_5isdPAVkEr-YEqI0PsuzRmlZ1zcrdJwAPjUq7uud30qpNW2qTg6Lr_DRyZWkiXIZzwxUNa93h2ns6kIm3y0pdWSBbKTun9MZekbAilQNOaCdnzYxEt2_upCYujefItWoxX48/s4032/PXL_20200927_202248428.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1_K51E0_5isdPAVkEr-YEqI0PsuzRmlZ1zcrdJwAPjUq7uud30qpNW2qTg6Lr_DRyZWkiXIZzwxUNa93h2ns6kIm3y0pdWSBbKTun9MZekbAilQNOaCdnzYxEt2_upCYujefItWoxX48/s320/PXL_20200927_202248428.jpg" /></span></a></div><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><div><br /></div><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;">So the past week or so has been peppered with periods of training; some full days - on Zoom (the new normal way of the world - no time travelling movie predicted this.... or did they?), then at the weekend we were in the new pool/s.</span></div><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsSmlh5evalcs9JtpIMgLBXLODdgXNGcdUJWyrV18y4JlL4l-xF45OIyBrp3zJvXC-JG57HV0TZcYDQ9RcpHsrDFlBu8_-yka1xeFTItx6RUwNSh4mtx1qZi7EigvqrphgQlnPuUWY6Z8/s4032/PXL_20200927_174604461.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="349" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsSmlh5evalcs9JtpIMgLBXLODdgXNGcdUJWyrV18y4JlL4l-xF45OIyBrp3zJvXC-JG57HV0TZcYDQ9RcpHsrDFlBu8_-yka1xeFTItx6RUwNSh4mtx1qZi7EigvqrphgQlnPuUWY6Z8/w465-h349/PXL_20200927_174604461.jpg" width="465" /></span></a></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica;"><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size: large;">I love the physical training; I was so fkn tired by Saturday night! We practiced rescues, situations, swam 400m in 10mins (7.39), retrieved bricks/mannikins from bottom of pool (13.5ft) and lots lots more.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size: large;">That evening,HG and I walked and picked up Mexican Food. HG played Pokemon on the way home. We watched some telly and played a game of Magic the Gathering. Then I worked on my lesson plan for Sunday, which probably could've taken me 15mins but I procrastinate, dawdle and send people things they need to complete theirs!</span></span><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span><br /></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhilZqtxbsk65sXi3dGId5KOJlCIWeqk3m6urv3M26b6ChlRDhlTC6tBN4rL649lF5gSh5JIRmFQzF8k_xNyZGfzPhjJpPxkSKzvpNzLYgVVMTh1607o-9Q-i3lkkcSxOwjAqNfw7zIDxo/s4032/PXL_20200927_042235428.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhilZqtxbsk65sXi3dGId5KOJlCIWeqk3m6urv3M26b6ChlRDhlTC6tBN4rL649lF5gSh5JIRmFQzF8k_xNyZGfzPhjJpPxkSKzvpNzLYgVVMTh1607o-9Q-i3lkkcSxOwjAqNfw7zIDxo/s320/PXL_20200927_042235428.jpg" /></a><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size: large;">My garden is doing well. I kinda ignore it this time of year; just water it if it doesn't rain for a few days. </span><br /><span style="font-size: large;">The Morning Glories are in full swing. But I'm bringing my marijuana plant in each night.</span><br /><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjY0-34YR-W02VDACq4DMZvTRxProDN1eK8wDKsg0z6B88bicpuvjzOIQi7rx7xQR2AAr-FfCoQpMTGbZlVlqtlU6RajKQVfRZwvNhgLZBkkAnj64IZTMhp5scJiBCe-tT2-cvEsM7eH3c/s4032/PXL_20200927_123712262.PORTRAIT-02.ORIGINAL.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="243" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjY0-34YR-W02VDACq4DMZvTRxProDN1eK8wDKsg0z6B88bicpuvjzOIQi7rx7xQR2AAr-FfCoQpMTGbZlVlqtlU6RajKQVfRZwvNhgLZBkkAnj64IZTMhp5scJiBCe-tT2-cvEsM7eH3c/w182-h243/PXL_20200927_123712262.PORTRAIT-02.ORIGINAL.jpg" width="182" /></span></a></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuo1snVjUJ4AN6wXcff9PSzVmxDS_7xJYrpI78MVWsDzH04bdpLICpTCpggR9yKeSzHDNukmJsEjso1hKT2G9-7YZsUYdcc7wXe1e5sA4MrTYrnBIFbr-loBi3fsIJ-0WVvw8jnFpPZ1E/s4032/PXL_20200927_122949494.PORTRAIT-01.COVER.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="183" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuo1snVjUJ4AN6wXcff9PSzVmxDS_7xJYrpI78MVWsDzH04bdpLICpTCpggR9yKeSzHDNukmJsEjso1hKT2G9-7YZsUYdcc7wXe1e5sA4MrTYrnBIFbr-loBi3fsIJ-0WVvw8jnFpPZ1E/w242-h183/PXL_20200927_122949494.PORTRAIT-01.COVER.jpg" width="242" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWl4RspLjojH2pfUdVmkSBIF7mJ9sWmEUfz8qpaOufWBmnd8cdBmBzoKqrPrAIQAaInpId_7HXw3I4MY86a51KSJKFQXk3ZzvEdfqaNs1cQ1NsdILYoY3NwCvZ-WsOChM9d3zk7DvNAJQ/s4032/PXL_20200927_123017935.PORTRAIT-01.COVER.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="184" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWl4RspLjojH2pfUdVmkSBIF7mJ9sWmEUfz8qpaOufWBmnd8cdBmBzoKqrPrAIQAaInpId_7HXw3I4MY86a51KSJKFQXk3ZzvEdfqaNs1cQ1NsdILYoY3NwCvZ-WsOChM9d3zk7DvNAJQ/w138-h184/PXL_20200927_123017935.PORTRAIT-01.COVER.jpg" width="138" /></a></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br />I am enjoying one day a week with the girly I nanny/care for. Her Mum was devastated when I said I wanted to cut down hours and focus on something else - lifeguarding/swim instruction, but she gets it and she loves me and I get to spend her birthday with girly this week so I'm excited about that!<br /><br />I love to teach her (A) about life and nature and the world. I know she would/will be fine without my input; her family are so articulate and balanced with minumal screentime (like almost zero until Covid/Zoom school). But I love watching her grow & being a part of it (without full responsibility of another being).<br /><br /><br />I took her to a corn field recently, to show her how corn grows. I told her about how as children, on family walks, I would run with my cousins through the corn fields (alongside a path/trail) and my Uncle would sometimes shout, pretending to be a farmer telling us off. 😂 My younger cousins would be screaming and crying. 😆<br /></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGq2Es03QHZTeLbZ51cDYXXPeRCYSIrhCXny1mq53JEHsmUYbkpp6rQVzrP8TYjXER5HQr8aIqSYoPvsUHxoHwraHzucdcYY2f62DH2XRTgfiU0QutphR2NDfkXAiKkbWicGLpg20uXlA/s4032/PXL_20200924_145510045.PORTRAIT-01.COVER.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="322" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGq2Es03QHZTeLbZ51cDYXXPeRCYSIrhCXny1mq53JEHsmUYbkpp6rQVzrP8TYjXER5HQr8aIqSYoPvsUHxoHwraHzucdcYY2f62DH2XRTgfiU0QutphR2NDfkXAiKkbWicGLpg20uXlA/w242-h322/PXL_20200924_145510045.PORTRAIT-01.COVER.jpg" width="242" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikakABscYnnbhVDYYwBsFqC91tkN0fnhmjj55ArAe2s_6PKUZwH9FLQCmA4oWxAehyphenhyphenq7YvQM1vleYVP0-M2-EsNdwXEx0CmozsvHxqs6JZvDEULQYrjCgrbBfLaLYkLpWtQ_mfrpzjIvk/s4032/PXL_20200924_145346549.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikakABscYnnbhVDYYwBsFqC91tkN0fnhmjj55ArAe2s_6PKUZwH9FLQCmA4oWxAehyphenhyphenq7YvQM1vleYVP0-M2-EsNdwXEx0CmozsvHxqs6JZvDEULQYrjCgrbBfLaLYkLpWtQ_mfrpzjIvk/s320/PXL_20200924_145346549.jpg" /></a></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /><br />I take her to the woods and the beach. </span></div><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;">We look around at bugs and leaves.<br />She's still annoyingly scared of spider webs though!<br /><br />I gave her a t-shirt about a year & a half ago, which says <br /><div style="text-align: center;">I Love Nature. </div>And she does. It's getting tight on her but it's still true! 💚</span><div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCxwti45GxIuSqGFeR3L3W_7gChSxwyjc3N9fbMibIE2IEuHmX6z80BixWFMllCCoj8PaFeNo9rynEu7Nz99cBdcEWwt0y4-4E0LdGWBQBSE8t8E0GfWsnOMz40Rnn0HewFeRroPSBXCc/s4032/PXL_20200924_141720055.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="229" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCxwti45GxIuSqGFeR3L3W_7gChSxwyjc3N9fbMibIE2IEuHmX6z80BixWFMllCCoj8PaFeNo9rynEu7Nz99cBdcEWwt0y4-4E0LdGWBQBSE8t8E0GfWsnOMz40Rnn0HewFeRroPSBXCc/w305-h229/PXL_20200924_141720055.jpg" width="305" /> </span></a><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAYZUeeQhm5of5ml_lxU8vKP-PnmUYUmy2v7wac5j12prHDSuBU-J-xbpE2TJq8z06zRt8qu5xUuqdq4AxqWHHfdmIY9OCraxdEuBKgFXgiExvm11k8hDBCVV8LEGu-mJG_BGbvn4W9Ts/s632/PXL_20200924_135719644._exported_839_1600968629095%257E2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="585" data-original-width="632" height="250" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAYZUeeQhm5of5ml_lxU8vKP-PnmUYUmy2v7wac5j12prHDSuBU-J-xbpE2TJq8z06zRt8qu5xUuqdq4AxqWHHfdmIY9OCraxdEuBKgFXgiExvm11k8hDBCVV8LEGu-mJG_BGbvn4W9Ts/w271-h250/PXL_20200924_135719644._exported_839_1600968629095%257E2.jpg" width="271" /></a></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCxwti45GxIuSqGFeR3L3W_7gChSxwyjc3N9fbMibIE2IEuHmX6z80BixWFMllCCoj8PaFeNo9rynEu7Nz99cBdcEWwt0y4-4E0LdGWBQBSE8t8E0GfWsnOMz40Rnn0HewFeRroPSBXCc/s4032/PXL_20200924_141720055.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></a><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica;"><br /><span style="font-size: medium;"><br />I haven't been working out AS much, with 12hr shifts and whatevs but I'm not beating myself up about it! Fitting it in where I can. </span></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTm0-oJZVYxRDMFyIXZ3s8BH-k93C57jfAhOxukqP05AP19ChXdElpUxFjUOMzT6oK-0195o5xUuaw-0fhmK-Q1d8xEMhyphenhyphenKN3Y1ECID9Eym_D6XoI_R67aOZKoAng4GEV7JroxeFtRZoY/s917/PXL_20200929_125832130_exported_129750_1601392616079.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="917" data-original-width="823" height="256" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTm0-oJZVYxRDMFyIXZ3s8BH-k93C57jfAhOxukqP05AP19ChXdElpUxFjUOMzT6oK-0195o5xUuaw-0fhmK-Q1d8xEMhyphenhyphenKN3Y1ECID9Eym_D6XoI_R67aOZKoAng4GEV7JroxeFtRZoY/w230-h256/PXL_20200929_125832130_exported_129750_1601392616079.jpg" width="230" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgu-Mea7r6roG1UMeejhBAYi3a4m7CznGyzBZPGmcIEpMnb7RPXCU4dGU_TX9pBOnj5zGSjk7E7MUrOsV6G8VSoYdsBbbZbhU0wYCY85_U9c_Yh4Q8n14NE5DbkYlaWAPV9dW-CX2iF1OI/s1920/VID_20200915_085734_exported_79505_1600494981118.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1920" data-original-width="1080" height="251" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgu-Mea7r6roG1UMeejhBAYi3a4m7CznGyzBZPGmcIEpMnb7RPXCU4dGU_TX9pBOnj5zGSjk7E7MUrOsV6G8VSoYdsBbbZbhU0wYCY85_U9c_Yh4Q8n14NE5DbkYlaWAPV9dW-CX2iF1OI/w141-h251/VID_20200915_085734_exported_79505_1600494981118.jpg" width="141" /></a><br /><br />Even managed a wee lake swim (20℃ in the water).</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;">The air was 7℃. It was deliciously therapeutic.</span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbwLRF2GFjH956v8pExf_xRmxEsOR_j9ACo8RBTzMnBmUUtKUymeUzFagkQBMHHKffEaTHuOaBrO77PQFZNx52PNc4yf6B3ML3p9qKzdlE0-liCKZMu1atE8dY4WQXbS1Iaqombi6fcnc/s3733/Snapchat-1768373864.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3733" data-original-width="2000" height="251" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbwLRF2GFjH956v8pExf_xRmxEsOR_j9ACo8RBTzMnBmUUtKUymeUzFagkQBMHHKffEaTHuOaBrO77PQFZNx52PNc4yf6B3ML3p9qKzdlE0-liCKZMu1atE8dY4WQXbS1Iaqombi6fcnc/w134-h251/Snapchat-1768373864.jpg" width="134" /></a> </span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuxmvDWp5yneKZ-7J1QAMIPMvBYGprL3rmvgeGPZg69kuSjyczijxt_hJU85qIygDnhA4UYtZpOEdYt_feTxj9zfVHP9BkjpcE3lCObK12jcKfpso4gdoEkww2Lj5x_48DgL4w_kM8XQ0/s681/VID_20200918_092626%257E3_exported_14892_1600441370388%257E2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: x-large; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="681" data-original-width="423" height="277" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuxmvDWp5yneKZ-7J1QAMIPMvBYGprL3rmvgeGPZg69kuSjyczijxt_hJU85qIygDnhA4UYtZpOEdYt_feTxj9zfVHP9BkjpcE3lCObK12jcKfpso4gdoEkww2Lj5x_48DgL4w_kM8XQ0/w172-h277/VID_20200918_092626%257E3_exported_14892_1600441370388%257E2.jpg" width="172" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhW-hwPHpP4feTuNcMfP5NpAiXX_G4Iwei3yEEcuVYj_dnEZJGnIHwqzMfyOdT1zvEkSTYBNrx2XzJomCc4hhcWJsHJrJhOFB6k-kla01e31NdFY2UgfYA7PKr9ANU-TRLHVWH-j4_Cj0E/s1028/VID_20200918_092405%257E2_exported_1872_1600493865841%257E2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="font-family: helvetica; font-size: x-large; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1028" data-original-width="750" height="244" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhW-hwPHpP4feTuNcMfP5NpAiXX_G4Iwei3yEEcuVYj_dnEZJGnIHwqzMfyOdT1zvEkSTYBNrx2XzJomCc4hhcWJsHJrJhOFB6k-kla01e31NdFY2UgfYA7PKr9ANU-TRLHVWH-j4_Cj0E/w178-h244/VID_20200918_092405%257E2_exported_1872_1600493865841%257E2.jpg" width="178" /></a><br /><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /><br /><br />Autumn is upon us and I want to envelop all the sights, smells and feels 🍁🍂🍃</span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi58NdAU2a9fxVq6a0uKfeEwVdoWbj_vHo9FYyUq5wyLneE2sjyWh3RVRBqdSmrqexCRgFQQqElACx02iMNds5_bTwOFPAMvdx8-FAWxoFeE0zNSKfEaP-lRBxJaCLHX7xHsJMjtMDiTuE/s4032/IMG_20200918_134950.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="275" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi58NdAU2a9fxVq6a0uKfeEwVdoWbj_vHo9FYyUq5wyLneE2sjyWh3RVRBqdSmrqexCRgFQQqElACx02iMNds5_bTwOFPAMvdx8-FAWxoFeE0zNSKfEaP-lRBxJaCLHX7xHsJMjtMDiTuE/w206-h275/IMG_20200918_134950.jpg" width="206" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgP7VCpUpcYUnuoVpQnjsu2tAD-oQbtGtXWY6_7wVrijqrW3GwtfUDm1_ryxWk2ZiDnjPSN3u6AdEHHpW-iOGRxvVRTOucLXysGuVkYD7zu4A5hMvaVLT1oKIM51OX2DtHR6-GvIjSzBMk/s4032/IMG_20200922_145434.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="276" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgP7VCpUpcYUnuoVpQnjsu2tAD-oQbtGtXWY6_7wVrijqrW3GwtfUDm1_ryxWk2ZiDnjPSN3u6AdEHHpW-iOGRxvVRTOucLXysGuVkYD7zu4A5hMvaVLT1oKIM51OX2DtHR6-GvIjSzBMk/w207-h276/IMG_20200922_145434.jpg" width="207" /></a></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCMb2f9WbNoIvmyztnEwzPcLeoNG6EDfxDuV1Pa2NKvx_ijxUD80NM-6U15sRvRKB0aGMStsFxgc8pEjAX6B-5nQHlqdYK1A1JQoBRqkK-oHs_oS-wX5odJPf_T0hV4t1DBXX3c9kZrAk/s4032/00100lrPORTRAIT_00100_BURST20200922145551649_COVER.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="205" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCMb2f9WbNoIvmyztnEwzPcLeoNG6EDfxDuV1Pa2NKvx_ijxUD80NM-6U15sRvRKB0aGMStsFxgc8pEjAX6B-5nQHlqdYK1A1JQoBRqkK-oHs_oS-wX5odJPf_T0hV4t1DBXX3c9kZrAk/w154-h205/00100lrPORTRAIT_00100_BURST20200922145551649_COVER.jpg" width="154" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXY3gzwxi1FggtYjFi0NPUakjXUf8KhMClUhtopYmGJ-IBaJ0bIAJ4659E_Z6aY8DP_XRZSu0JDnH4GwyKvT9D8wEQDWmV_bx6TS1JVPwDENxueGZTrbNOOefCXpLlHDs9cMpaYnx6JUA/s4032/00100lrPORTRAIT_00100_BURST20200922145602780_COVER.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="205" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXY3gzwxi1FggtYjFi0NPUakjXUf8KhMClUhtopYmGJ-IBaJ0bIAJ4659E_Z6aY8DP_XRZSu0JDnH4GwyKvT9D8wEQDWmV_bx6TS1JVPwDENxueGZTrbNOOefCXpLlHDs9cMpaYnx6JUA/w154-h205/00100lrPORTRAIT_00100_BURST20200922145602780_COVER.jpg" width="154" /></a></span></div><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzr3YCI-N-6QXFb4uBnV8VS6f97_WOV9zH-z1IANArzuHuUVvSXSYCxWSdqB6bbG44mBUBIFzATY1PuwER2ZvQDy8vqRS5qOM-QLYZaxg74gNEzMKimtJOKxSpyfq7yJ_hHkISDgQdUgc/s4032/IMG_20200923_151220.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="379" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzr3YCI-N-6QXFb4uBnV8VS6f97_WOV9zH-z1IANArzuHuUVvSXSYCxWSdqB6bbG44mBUBIFzATY1PuwER2ZvQDy8vqRS5qOM-QLYZaxg74gNEzMKimtJOKxSpyfq7yJ_hHkISDgQdUgc/w507-h379/IMG_20200923_151220.jpg" width="507" /></a><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYStV8DH2vTKzQmbWYg9_t4A0cKLUygiBnY5XFCNQWWuaBl63x_eqW_m62YsA8PUvk_UhXHfvWrVVUoDCjLCu_syRb32HHt4LtVo6b1X0OcXM3L3Dcd7EqcX6BTt-COFoK1mKqP9nG6cA/s4032/IMG_20200922_180436.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYStV8DH2vTKzQmbWYg9_t4A0cKLUygiBnY5XFCNQWWuaBl63x_eqW_m62YsA8PUvk_UhXHfvWrVVUoDCjLCu_syRb32HHt4LtVo6b1X0OcXM3L3Dcd7EqcX6BTt-COFoK1mKqP9nG6cA/w640-h480/IMG_20200922_180436.jpg" width="640" /></a><br />Our final Tuesday evening (Triathlon Club) bike ride. </div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZ3IWtqf8EKlO2bN_0vpH9o9557GkZLC3C2cP6_t_1jNnopgrod6SYjnCbr0u8IglmgMqkUP-HwiZPtKRZMl2wXdNKPNJQN8YjVFuWS5_l7VW6jXE-mb6DkNiLd8abAmeUAtKmNncRQAE/s4032/IMG_20200923_150313.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="463" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZ3IWtqf8EKlO2bN_0vpH9o9557GkZLC3C2cP6_t_1jNnopgrod6SYjnCbr0u8IglmgMqkUP-HwiZPtKRZMl2wXdNKPNJQN8YjVFuWS5_l7VW6jXE-mb6DkNiLd8abAmeUAtKmNncRQAE/w347-h463/IMG_20200923_150313.jpg" width="347" /></a></div><br /> </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #990000; font-family: helvetica; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHLmNSnQkWC5O5-WcqTJTsCXcUDXTCs12fg6F7uVvXbEWT7FzH2wKgpeQ51-MNR7ejNN_4GduqCUU3sekIK4hso_yecgL_WjiAIT7bXNn1FCgPxnZnJE4c-xsP0df9-VkIUhLEruFhNis/s3264/PXL_20200924_115922080.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3264" data-original-width="2448" height="548" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHLmNSnQkWC5O5-WcqTJTsCXcUDXTCs12fg6F7uVvXbEWT7FzH2wKgpeQ51-MNR7ejNN_4GduqCUU3sekIK4hso_yecgL_WjiAIT7bXNn1FCgPxnZnJE4c-xsP0df9-VkIUhLEruFhNis/w411-h548/PXL_20200924_115922080.jpg" width="411" /></a> <br /><br />Until next time,<br />Be kind to each other ❤</span><br /><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="text-align: left;">👩</span></div></div><p><br /></p><p><br /></p></div></div>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-2737996990762892612020-05-31T15:09:00.000-07:002020-05-31T15:09:27.871-07:00Black Lives Matter: Enough is enough<span style="font-size: large;">It STILL baffles me, that even as a child I knew everyone was even/equal... (Why wouldn't we be?!) yet governments and systems and other dumbasses don't yet get it.<br /><br />My white privilege allows me to have thought, in the past, "but I don't see colour". <br />If you'd asked me about my friends, race isn't what I would use describe them.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;">WE ARE CURRENTLY IN THE MIDST OF A PANDEMIC - where everyone is hiding from an enemy they can't see - AND A WAR AGAINST RACISM - an on-going <b>PANDEMIC</b>.<br /><br />Black people & their allies should NOT still be having to fight this war so far down the line... although Rosa Parks (born in 1913) only died in 2005 - refusing to give up her seat on the (segregated) bus in 1955. So in my parents' lifetime, things have adjusted slightly. But things are still so far from fair.<br /><br />I heard that the US police was created to "protect white women from black men". They arrived violent, 300yrs ago and still aren't treating POC with the respect they deserve.<br /><br />Things are changing rapidly at the moment; I am sure more will have changed by tomorrow, but I wanted to log my thoughts at this time.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-size: x-large;">What a mad time to be 39 (and 4 days).<br /><br />Cities in America are protesting. From what I've seen, (non-uniformed) police and WHITE fucktard youths have been starting/causing any trouble i.e damaging property.<br /><br />It's like 75% of us know what's right and needs to change (is it that high or am I niave?) - but the POLICE were driving through/into crowds of people.<br />Firing tear gas randomly - but only at black people.<br />Are you trying to <b>ProVe</b> your racism???<br /><br />What The Actual Fuck.<br /><br />Enough is enough.<br /><br />But how can things change when the people in charge are the ones keeping things this way?<br /><br /><br /><br /></span><br />
<br />:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-89885381005787357012020-02-11T12:50:00.003-08:002020-02-11T12:50:47.502-08:00Ramblings of a Tuesday afternoon.I really wanted to write or type every day starting 1st Feb.... or read - which I have been doing every day, because library books come with a deadine!!<br /><br />I'm reading Sex at Dawn and Notes on a Nervous Planet.<br /><br />As I went to begin this bloggerooo, I received an email, which I checked on my phone (I recently turned on notifications because I was missing emails etc.). It's an email about volunteering for the games... so I went to answer it. But wait. Bubble wait.<br /><br /><br /><br />I am also listening to a podcast: My Dad Wrote a Porno.<br /><br />So fuckin' funny :D<br />
<br />
Anyhoo... I may have an interview about providing special support for a young person, possibly with an intellectual disability.<br />I didn't get another job I applied for, but am happy for the lady who did, who will be supervising me.<br /><br />I am going to be volunteering for the Winter Olympics and Mariposa Folk Festival :D<br /><br /><br /><br />I must dash, I have walked to the gym today and had a nice work out with a bunch o ladies!<br />Step aerobics ftw!<br /><br />Walked home, pottered, had furnace guys round... (upstairs wasn't getting heat).<br />Ate avo on toast. Shower la de daaaaah.<br /><br />HG is coming and we're going to the pet shop.<br /><br />Chat laters gators :)<br /><br />:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-4555782476617314552020-02-03T08:41:00.000-08:002020-02-03T08:41:02.820-08:00Childfree Period Bliss<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I was searching for blog names... and from typing in The Childfree Parent (my current mini project; I'll have a new one next week!!)... I came across these, without even trying...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<a href="https://ifstudies.org/blog/does-having-children-make-people-happier-in-the-long-run"><span style="color: blue; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">https://ifstudies.org/blog/does-having-children-make-people-happier-in-the-long-run</span></a><br />
<span style="color: blue; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<a href="https://www.wired.com/story/how-we-reproduce-childfree/"><span style="color: blue; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">https://www.wired.com/story/how-we-reproduce-childfree/</span></a><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">It's becoming more common (in the Western world) to question whether or not we should be having children. So much of what we are told each day points to Why The Fuck would you do that...<br /><br />* Temperature of Earth is rising.<br />* Icebergs melting, fires, hurricanes, floods.... not sure how much more evidence is required.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Apparently, h</span><span style="font-size: large;">aving a child multiplies your carbon footprint by 400%</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br />Not to mention the added impacts...<br />* Destroy your body<br />* Erase all chances of peaceful sleep<br />* Trample on your sex life<br />* Mess up your house/car</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Reasons to reproduce:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">* To see what a mini me would look/be like<br />* To have a small being who relies on me for the next X number of years. Or who ends up having to care for me.<br />* Sorry these are still geared towards being childfree...<br />* To experience pregnancy (but have my body fucked up)<br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">----------------------------------------------</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I started this a few days ago.<br />Today I have period cramps.<br /><br />Bittersweet.<br />So happy just to have my cycle after cancer treatment!<br /><br />Have a good day <3</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-17181684223675921182019-08-12T18:57:00.001-07:002019-08-12T18:57:48.329-07:00Harsh Truths.<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">I re-joined a chat/date/meet ppl site/app.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">Constant messages... I cannot keep up.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFLvt1IPuuIZ-eZrtl48xxYQrCWx20RZVukc0_Btv_ElhK-aqYbsVzk_Z0mqZqPeC5rqGsvViJ-ASE0taq4Z_ScaWwxVxfij-f8sjCs9g9UGYjQDcHCPbdTRWhVxFHieEjrg0WPYSptJE/s1600/Screenshot_2019-08-12-14-50-43.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="740" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFLvt1IPuuIZ-eZrtl48xxYQrCWx20RZVukc0_Btv_ElhK-aqYbsVzk_Z0mqZqPeC5rqGsvViJ-ASE0taq4Z_ScaWwxVxfij-f8sjCs9g9UGYjQDcHCPbdTRWhVxFHieEjrg0WPYSptJE/s320/Screenshot_2019-08-12-14-50-43.png" width="148" /></span></a></div>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">In most of the profiles I read, people often state that they either already have children or are hoping to in the future.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">I wonder if these people have considered what they are reproducing.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">What is so special about you?</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">I worry that the joys of fatherhood are over-glorified.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">I'm sure in many cases (maybe 15%), individuals continue as happy as a couple once sprogs come along. Maybe I'm being pessimistic.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">I am guessing these young guys on dating apps are excited about fathering - they get to definitely have sex and get to cum inside a lady - they are hoping it's their wife (of course, after they fuck a few fitties along the way...). One guy (25) asked after a couple of hour of chatting, if he could cum inside me as he doesn't like condoms... I suggested he was way ahead of the game. 😬 The fact that we live 2.5hrs apart is one of the many reasons this is unlikely to happen.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;">On a texting rant to him about how people are pandering to their kids, calling them 'princesses' and gloating about spoiling them, when actually, if you were putting the effort in, they would have a variety of healthy experiences and appropriate boundaries. Teaching them about life and preparing them for a life that, let's face it, could potentially be pretty shitty in some ways.<br /><br />We've already lost 70% the number of bugs there used to be in the 80s/90s.<br />Who knows if we'll be able to drink water or swim in lakes in 20yrs time?<br /><br />Instead, they are being taught that they are at the centre of the universe (if you reproduce, you should be trying EXTRA hard to counteract your 400% carbon footprint). I.M.O.<br />Overstimulated by screens and lacking the understanding of delayed gratifications.<br />We need to be careful that we aren't raising dangerous adults.<br /><br />Anyway, it's time for me to GTFO 👍<br /><br />PS Life is grand, we're so lucky & loved.<br />Here are some snaps from the last few summer dayzzz! ✨🌞<br />Oh and my Dadio got married! I've been calling her stepmum for years! :D</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVgmy4OAgn8utaYHbLU2Lznl1gO9ma0vKKKJiPtzgmtbFwq8KhOlmVo4NZSPeuPJgcnnS5esFEnFOUdnu5wX1vZUoPRAKoy2M2JnDPpCUPShUgWcvO7nF2kBN0n3Bu5nAAFTHnOwatM44/s1600/IMG_20190811_061347_621.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="863" data-original-width="1600" height="172" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVgmy4OAgn8utaYHbLU2Lznl1gO9ma0vKKKJiPtzgmtbFwq8KhOlmVo4NZSPeuPJgcnnS5esFEnFOUdnu5wX1vZUoPRAKoy2M2JnDPpCUPShUgWcvO7nF2kBN0n3Bu5nAAFTHnOwatM44/s320/IMG_20190811_061347_621.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNjNb8lygpVxz5q1KNyC1VK3QGaFYy0RIqRqoPCEY673HcjkivHstL0nJXcZ0QgEl06QkPFp2mgAd9RziCkrTjAFvJSRTS6XF3P4mHjJrFfQYjI4JOKupyQfOt5Xx75OaoT1nj6GtBnUM/s1600/20190811_105803_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNjNb8lygpVxz5q1KNyC1VK3QGaFYy0RIqRqoPCEY673HcjkivHstL0nJXcZ0QgEl06QkPFp2mgAd9RziCkrTjAFvJSRTS6XF3P4mHjJrFfQYjI4JOKupyQfOt5Xx75OaoT1nj6GtBnUM/s320/20190811_105803_HDR.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1AGiF77Gev4QqDKsi4Ldq7ai0WQtU3zik0X3UHw-h3JSIZ_jP27gXAKjFyHCNZ7IfOTI537es9cBCFdoNYEZTgr4bXnzaZ8J33IG75ILHZ4dLvwHIZb9y3GuX5fHxhH6sAiUByVbtA3A/s1600/20190811_113323.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1AGiF77Gev4QqDKsi4Ldq7ai0WQtU3zik0X3UHw-h3JSIZ_jP27gXAKjFyHCNZ7IfOTI537es9cBCFdoNYEZTgr4bXnzaZ8J33IG75ILHZ4dLvwHIZb9y3GuX5fHxhH6sAiUByVbtA3A/s320/20190811_113323.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDzVuBlhNu2Kmphb0zi2rawpwVNO1fkIRbVgucdEf7aYznEwFMsEWwTIdNSJ5bVHwVWhMBzbgJWi-yIJgG9G66CVFNNJqEL50VTHbUCq-nk0hYa49JCgaEYbyOu2IpbHJuSrOo7d3U_e4/s1600/20190811_115638.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDzVuBlhNu2Kmphb0zi2rawpwVNO1fkIRbVgucdEf7aYznEwFMsEWwTIdNSJ5bVHwVWhMBzbgJWi-yIJgG9G66CVFNNJqEL50VTHbUCq-nk0hYa49JCgaEYbyOu2IpbHJuSrOo7d3U_e4/s320/20190811_115638.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtxdpSg4arWnqNgiI6_o8Donga7fBFmkT1dCNRlZ8qFMg8aZVeDwkj6CjVA3lbz67ucWMqnKACRwuadZqRXXTa9X-pkRj2aL_NHBDhNSzRKooeEaPdHG4B_tK-PV2cKhMMlfO1qqb6yQ8/s1600/IMG_20190809_095433_713.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtxdpSg4arWnqNgiI6_o8Donga7fBFmkT1dCNRlZ8qFMg8aZVeDwkj6CjVA3lbz67ucWMqnKACRwuadZqRXXTa9X-pkRj2aL_NHBDhNSzRKooeEaPdHG4B_tK-PV2cKhMMlfO1qqb6yQ8/s320/IMG_20190809_095433_713.jpg" width="172" /></span></a></div>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /><br /></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<span style="color: #660000; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
</div>
<br />:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-7218616960985945902019-07-17T08:10:00.004-07:002019-07-20T10:03:11.239-07:00Before you reproduce...<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEqfGkpkwhTf5zkipJ6ARSxxTDgR2vD7VKWcbWFA805-qVu-n-oqZfwzMdvUop9yNkexIN6kOf5cTN5uJh24PZy1Trps4d3K89VBNTRiHZCXtogPecUrSYSVTo5qWlk7_6BhbjNf0oqGw/s1600/20190718_175414.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEqfGkpkwhTf5zkipJ6ARSxxTDgR2vD7VKWcbWFA805-qVu-n-oqZfwzMdvUop9yNkexIN6kOf5cTN5uJh24PZy1Trps4d3K89VBNTRiHZCXtogPecUrSYSVTo5qWlk7_6BhbjNf0oqGw/s320/20190718_175414.jpg" width="320" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">I love this country! </td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">There are so many things I want to talk about.<br />I am tempted to begin a new blog for parenting ideas, advice etc.<br /><br />As a childfree person, I have - obviously - questioned re-creating. Between HG and I, we have discussed and mulled it over from all angles.<br />Basically, the things we most like doing don't comfortably include children.<br />Now as I'm sitting here, I'm thinking 'but they are only children for....' how many years?<br /><br />I think we/young people don't really begin to have much of a clue - in general - what they are doing, until they reach at least 25 years of age.<br />That's a lot of time and energy. 💟<br /><br />The more people, friends and soooo many guys I speak to who have young children tell me repeatedly, how their partner's sex drive is way off course from their own. I understand mothers (often times) are tired, overworked and unappreciated - parenting is largely an endless, thankless job, let's be honest. But I think if anyone deserves/needs sexual pleasure, it's mothers. Do yourself a favour and let your husband devour you. 👅</span><br />
<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: right; margin-left: 1em; text-align: right;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkWkPonJJLVKMButGMGkH8o2-RVdspWKMiuxy82WeEgR9hRFC6EsBnLTiZ6jTWj1q9vH90iVpTekqKwPA6X0fB2pgFP3UZLQay__MTNbSwxbs4ea1s_4JRDSvxA1Z87jVs_yx-GsmuH-g/s1600/20190718_112916.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkWkPonJJLVKMButGMGkH8o2-RVdspWKMiuxy82WeEgR9hRFC6EsBnLTiZ6jTWj1q9vH90iVpTekqKwPA6X0fB2pgFP3UZLQay__MTNbSwxbs4ea1s_4JRDSvxA1Z87jVs_yx-GsmuH-g/s320/20190718_112916.jpg" width="160" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Love this lil bean.</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><b>Tangent:</b><br /><br />The toddler I nanny for has started giving me genuine, unprompted thank yous for doing things for her - or when she finds out I had done/given her something. It honestly makes my day and lightens my heart.<br /><br /><br /><br />There are many children who need caring for (I feel lucky to be welcomed and included into a supported/supportive, cultured, intellectual family).</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">Yet people keep popping sprogs.<br /><br />I don't intend to offend - I know most of my friends are doing/will do a fantastic job of bringing caring, planet-loving, respectful little people into this world.<br /><br />In the back of my head I just keep hearing... "twelve harvests left..."<br /><br />Things aren't happening fast enough. Everything - EVERYTHING - (ok not everything) is still being made with plastic.<br /><br />Bank cards, razors, toothbrushes, most containers...<br /><br />...because (never start a sentence with because) (avoid using never/always 👧) ...</span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">BECAUSE the people at the top are dickheads - often with psychopathic tendencies (lacking empathy - giving no shits about who gets hurt) - are in cahoots with the oil/petrol companies. Plastic is made from oil. I wonder if everyone knows that.<br />What I don't understand is what they think their own offspring are going to live on.</span><br />
<br />
<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWGlf0QeriZZ6Ozu1GhCIGW4H46PO7mBhVjA1CUORkHs9uiDEzA3stVX59ihSXakReFNJYFuqg-BlyzZmWT0UoyKqASx04JNUtRgaSuRXWj73eHtMlF0OKAQHKUdjczWqZIXHhDdwVwPA/s1600/IMG_20190715_155925_317.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="863" data-original-width="1600" height="172" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWGlf0QeriZZ6Ozu1GhCIGW4H46PO7mBhVjA1CUORkHs9uiDEzA3stVX59ihSXakReFNJYFuqg-BlyzZmWT0UoyKqASx04JNUtRgaSuRXWj73eHtMlF0OKAQHKUdjczWqZIXHhDdwVwPA/s320/IMG_20190715_155925_317.jpg" width="320" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Adventuring with my man.</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />I also wonder what effect it will have to keep removing bits, pieces, liquids etc from the earth and it's core. Humans don't deserve this planet & it's creatures.<br />Then they seem surprised by earthquakes, storms etc. A'doyyyy!<br /><br />In 20 to 50 years, who knows; maybe we'll all have to wear masks every time we leave the house.<br />Maybe we won't be able to swim in the seas, lakes, rivers, waterfalls anymore.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br /><br />Anyway... breathe... another blog, another time...</span></span><br />
<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWh0pNMvdmbchmYxeHiqrNXaXFkEKByoy3Tvz4mES-4lc4DwG0tl16-WTklLppnZ5xiGCcg1oiiA22KW7ResAWpwzmAt5Abihz3e2wVypWhomlkOIykxptj4GrWP83Z17XBAqUvPHjse4/s1600/Screenshot_2019-07-16-08-12-13.png" imageanchor="1" style="font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: medium; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="1104" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWh0pNMvdmbchmYxeHiqrNXaXFkEKByoy3Tvz4mES-4lc4DwG0tl16-WTklLppnZ5xiGCcg1oiiA22KW7ResAWpwzmAt5Abihz3e2wVypWhomlkOIykxptj4GrWP83Z17XBAqUvPHjse4/s200/Screenshot_2019-07-16-08-12-13.png" width="137" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Ugh.</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br /><br />Back to the sex drive topic - I'm not saying sex is the most important part of a relationship/marriage, but I find it can have a lot to do with intimacy, affection, belonging & connection, as much as the actual act of sex itself. I also know of women who's male partners are not interested in sex or have a low sex drive.<br /><br /><br /><br />My initial reason for this topic was...<br /><br />What are people's reasons for reproducing?<br /><br />Do they think about their reasons? Feel free to drop me any ideas/answers!<br /><br />GTG.<br /><br />I love you xx</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />P.S edit - adding snaps :)</span></span><br />
<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZmzXENs085ONt6AXAeSdnSpjawjozKxblGu_IA224NGVVL7Roe6OGINArN3jLXE7kYcFc4yKLHghaglDBPbkhFLiMx9mvA2tJ9BVRP0lxnB3FqjxAnrALfgwe0iRYoz9LRwwckyfOViU/s1600/IMG_20190718_175221_398.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZmzXENs085ONt6AXAeSdnSpjawjozKxblGu_IA224NGVVL7Roe6OGINArN3jLXE7kYcFc4yKLHghaglDBPbkhFLiMx9mvA2tJ9BVRP0lxnB3FqjxAnrALfgwe0iRYoz9LRwwckyfOViU/s320/IMG_20190718_175221_398.jpg" width="172" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Happy place!</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiiesqk9661j9NB-q3BbPrA7G5H2bnIe2Ke1SNYGl2YC259XULfXOarJBGIJ9jyFR5jgjFUCIxuEB2oMbFw_X-7pDXsqlbkB9CRQ8KaJv2UL_T5y4pWjoqw-3r_kCH_SCkVhYL81YN_4A8/s1600/VID_274551122_113036_426.mp4" imageanchor="1" style="font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: medium; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="900" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiiesqk9661j9NB-q3BbPrA7G5H2bnIe2Ke1SNYGl2YC259XULfXOarJBGIJ9jyFR5jgjFUCIxuEB2oMbFw_X-7pDXsqlbkB9CRQ8KaJv2UL_T5y4pWjoqw-3r_kCH_SCkVhYL81YN_4A8/s320/VID_274551122_113036_426.mp4" width="256" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Chemo curls</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg99tQ2ezOb154kv6yUFvYntbgi3hNKFWrvWe67Xp2_eIcuarS2a1b8ZZxscw5KRE8ENdW-2Z8cVq9ESCYLrCYJTIFCX13T9uIFadBF8vIcmk0EU_VZbYn4Jc93bJE5nKqaaFxDjlmDQss/s1600/20190714_075304.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg99tQ2ezOb154kv6yUFvYntbgi3hNKFWrvWe67Xp2_eIcuarS2a1b8ZZxscw5KRE8ENdW-2Z8cVq9ESCYLrCYJTIFCX13T9uIFadBF8vIcmk0EU_VZbYn4Jc93bJE5nKqaaFxDjlmDQss/s200/20190714_075304.jpg" width="100" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Beautiful moth</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-45922325151811630492019-03-22T08:17:00.002-07:002019-07-20T09:54:14.982-07:00Puzzling Times<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="text-align: start;">At the beginning of my treatment, I had an exciting thought that óoh I could do a jigsaw puzzzzzle!', as the 'doing' or completing of a puzzle is a far distant fantasy :) We don't really have the space... though thanks to the packaging of Tom's fancy up/down desk, I used a large piece of cardboard and took over the foot rest thing (freebie from the end of someone's drive). </span><br style="text-align: start;" /><br style="text-align: start;" /><span style="text-align: start;">So a few weeks into my treatment, my Dad's lady (my step-mum) came round and gave me flowers, a puzzle of a garden (I can still hear my Dad saying how he'd told her it would be too hard etc etc.) and probably other lovely goodies! I set it up briefly on the up/down desk prior to the computer being finished (HG bought the PC part by part over a few months and taught me how to install each piece. Fantastic experience and post-chemo activity!), using the felt roll-up 'mat' which step-Mum had also given me. However I wasn't applying the time and so I put it away in the spare room, during a tidy up.</span></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT4TDOzyz0NfSTFaTkfQ2VqwaNTEocNPr2KJ6R8zSnGw3JwDUI0mA38OtJgxuaNFNIq9jUU5CBW3EQ6_qJaiHkiEGhhIaWoMC562YwtDxiOV4df47j3RcxgWPLzC9o0LizdMveFDoO888/s1600/20190128_135132.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT4TDOzyz0NfSTFaTkfQ2VqwaNTEocNPr2KJ6R8zSnGw3JwDUI0mA38OtJgxuaNFNIq9jUU5CBW3EQ6_qJaiHkiEGhhIaWoMC562YwtDxiOV4df47j3RcxgWPLzC9o0LizdMveFDoO888/s320/20190128_135132.jpg" width="160" /></span></a><span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2j4yJWW7aM5COi2Ra0effeaOuoBt31w2SkjSf48YoCtc4B9iJxYvsWZ3Gea4ib39IhV1WwPEIoKkAsgzMIrCKknzKJ7Iw3If7v3A6JU45ITqJeO5j03_K2FBItHVJRb683uMqEcP1Tj8/s1600/20190121_183634.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2j4yJWW7aM5COi2Ra0effeaOuoBt31w2SkjSf48YoCtc4B9iJxYvsWZ3Gea4ib39IhV1WwPEIoKkAsgzMIrCKknzKJ7Iw3If7v3A6JU45ITqJeO5j03_K2FBItHVJRb683uMqEcP1Tj8/s320/20190121_183634.jpg" width="320" /></a><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5Gaf_L2jPE6yYVZQkmIxocjsZJfrT0UsirF1rb_ennRD10XQDTsNfPBAwGBPzinD4BTVIiUQ7-a5s2GRkogQud6rMXsy3UWTs3hN0O1bNfRGUWPKu_DlJQ0V3X-so1BA0EAf1cmBPZoE/s1600/20190210_145028.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5Gaf_L2jPE6yYVZQkmIxocjsZJfrT0UsirF1rb_ennRD10XQDTsNfPBAwGBPzinD4BTVIiUQ7-a5s2GRkogQud6rMXsy3UWTs3hN0O1bNfRGUWPKu_DlJQ0V3X-so1BA0EAf1cmBPZoE/s400/20190210_145028.jpg" width="400" /></a></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Around the end of chemotherapy, I started the puzzle. I had 2 weeks before radiation treatment started. I actually started it twice, as the cat jumped up and flipped it onto the floor!<br /><br />HG began to help, but found it too tedious.<br />My Mum came over from England in February for 8 days and applied many hours to the puzzle!<br />We had fun with our shared challenge though!</span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZP5W4TLG4EF5BSnLsCKwrQuAyuEF4Z0I-fGQcrUjSt-ZjvelWGgH8iHgY5SdEcUo_-skx_HVPmnFb7kc4_HByelOuQBMPNURSaDwAUk20Sqw6qUvXaPTZJCDRJBkUCm0EPJlpoX2-e8U/s1600/20190221_225306.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZP5W4TLG4EF5BSnLsCKwrQuAyuEF4Z0I-fGQcrUjSt-ZjvelWGgH8iHgY5SdEcUo_-skx_HVPmnFb7kc4_HByelOuQBMPNURSaDwAUk20Sqw6qUvXaPTZJCDRJBkUCm0EPJlpoX2-e8U/s320/20190221_225306.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5-YQU6lt-WY3UyqyclTMJwqElq6hp4Z-QaXvmV9_hX8MmmOF40cePH0CXEzGhAcHassjXvmQATdth4ywP-Mi_bJZXRFldEFA_PHTYRP3fuK2CR0xf2eevOCWLo5Gmv45AbVLOavHtqFA/s1600/20190227_200425.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5-YQU6lt-WY3UyqyclTMJwqElq6hp4Z-QaXvmV9_hX8MmmOF40cePH0CXEzGhAcHassjXvmQATdth4ywP-Mi_bJZXRFldEFA_PHTYRP3fuK2CR0xf2eevOCWLo5Gmv45AbVLOavHtqFA/s320/20190227_200425.jpg" width="160" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDsrOVlVBZaJ27P5QIcW99PK3m8_kB8H4w7uDoMd1GfyRALWrQyCA_BPlLlkB1cexUyREd0u7sTsrE4NVQF6XwjrRUL49XcmX6vYRtZ7KDS5ER_1bsdM0kREoN4w_MbXlqofsnjk9uUas/s1600/Message_1552183545054.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDsrOVlVBZaJ27P5QIcW99PK3m8_kB8H4w7uDoMd1GfyRALWrQyCA_BPlLlkB1cexUyREd0u7sTsrE4NVQF6XwjrRUL49XcmX6vYRtZ7KDS5ER_1bsdM0kREoN4w_MbXlqofsnjk9uUas/s320/Message_1552183545054.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjanMWquF2AeuZg4qB2eiHM42gZl_kUtiwiLrnKl-4nfGRWww6rwf1tvLvZCUKLp-EGp_-LoXo2gWuylw1Kz_uzQ8tIBE0lJzfZSt7r8CicgQ9QlX_yCcFbcByhkrFLY7GUa4XqUYSXCoE/s1600/20190311_234318.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjanMWquF2AeuZg4qB2eiHM42gZl_kUtiwiLrnKl-4nfGRWww6rwf1tvLvZCUKLp-EGp_-LoXo2gWuylw1Kz_uzQ8tIBE0lJzfZSt7r8CicgQ9QlX_yCcFbcByhkrFLY7GUa4XqUYSXCoE/s320/20190311_234318.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPghPVqVuIIUXYN-TX-ZB4u3tZFNEaYoBBXGKsRqwGZmR7wdSS2JzyacQ2XwcGxPGhratIUY6g0gFhyphenhyphen8I9RDRwj3LW3O7HGzwGYlWkNv3YTDQ7EXGo3eR2IGEG_EJ4I9HgAHTw_ap-c7I/s1600/20190316_153701.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPghPVqVuIIUXYN-TX-ZB4u3tZFNEaYoBBXGKsRqwGZmR7wdSS2JzyacQ2XwcGxPGhratIUY6g0gFhyphenhyphen8I9RDRwj3LW3O7HGzwGYlWkNv3YTDQ7EXGo3eR2IGEG_EJ4I9HgAHTw_ap-c7I/s320/20190316_153701.jpg" width="320" /></a><br /><br />Question!!<br />What technique do you use when 'puzzling'?<br />I try (especially with this confusion of a masterpiece) to browse or work with one or two and match the pieces using their colours, shapes, individuality...<br />Mum seemed to like searching for one piece in all the pieces! 😋</span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #274e13;"><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiLVg7VMg9x_64fbvENSjsxOZbpxQQGG6tpXE0xPWbQAbwSwPKUj2jaJJYxr60u3ey8BcFgUnHz9w0YQWXvA0at5rgoiCLfi-PdNudfxaKNaHoaaz0jErG4PHZPU6BnH3l1x8XyAJR99M/s1600/IMG_20190322_104852_202.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiLVg7VMg9x_64fbvENSjsxOZbpxQQGG6tpXE0xPWbQAbwSwPKUj2jaJJYxr60u3ey8BcFgUnHz9w0YQWXvA0at5rgoiCLfi-PdNudfxaKNaHoaaz0jErG4PHZPU6BnH3l1x8XyAJR99M/s320/IMG_20190322_104852_202.jpg" width="172" /></a><br /><br />I probably should have written this once I'd completed it!<br />Thinking about gluing it into position & framing it!<br /><br />Ok breaky time! 10:15!<br />HG is off this week and we've had a glorious couple of nights away.<br />It's nice to be chiiiill. Especially when work has been stressing him.<br />I usually pass out on the sofa but the puzzle has been keeping me occupied! I didn't sleep enough last night however. :P<br /><br />TTFN<br /><br />PS<br />My point was that puzzles require patience like cancer does... 😏</span></span></div>
<span style="color: #274e13;"><br /></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-13067787393542007672019-03-14T12:21:00.003-07:002019-03-14T12:21:33.174-07:00Reborn - A poem <span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Lashes & Brows, I love you so!<br />I pass a mirror, you catch my eye;<br />I love seeing you grow!<br /><br />You've reappeared, you make me smile<br />I can think of nothing finer<br />than blinking with excitement</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">at not needing eye liner!<br /><br />I have missed you these past few weeks,</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">As small as you may seem.</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Not having you around for a while</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">makes this all feel like a dream!<br /><br />The armpits I can live with;<br />the hairs can just stay gone!<br />In the grand ole scheme of things,</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">I'm just grateful to be strong.<br /><br />I watched you leave me one by one,</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">Said goodbye, tried not to cry,</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;">But now we are reborn once more,<br />Like the phoenix, we're alive. 🔥</span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-32357034595609434472019-03-14T11:27:00.001-07:002019-03-14T11:42:04.454-07:00Chemo Poem<br />
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<b><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">8th December 2018</span></b></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<b><b><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Chemo week 10 of 16</span></b></b></div>
<div style="text-align: start;">
<b></b></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">My hair was long & luscious;</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">a wavy, fuzz mess.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">But since 2 months it's gone now</span></div>
<div style="text-align: start;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I've been left with much much less.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Being bald isn't so bad;</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Quick showers: wash & go!</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I try to run my fingers through it,</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Alas I just touch bone!</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: start;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">This poison is to kill me</span></div>
<div style="text-align: start;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It's a funny kind of life...</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">We're on a journey to kill the cancer,</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">So I can keep being a wife.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I go from day to day</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Feeding myself with goodness;</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I know life will never be the same,</span></div>
<div style="text-align: start;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">But it could be so much worse.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And so I'll skip & sing my way</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">through chemo and the lot.</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Rads, hormone treatment, life goes on</span></div>
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"></span><br />
<div style="text-align: left;">
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I'll be giving it all I've got!</span></div>
</div>
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I just realised that I hadn't shared this!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Today I walked to the hospital and back (which I've been talking about doing since this journey began, 8 months ago!) and saw my favourite chemo nurses for my final port flush!<br /><br />On my final day of chemo (14th Jan 2019) I wrote out a copy of this poem I'd written and I gave it to the chemo nurses. A few days later, one of the nurses called me and asked if I'd mind them publishing my poem in the hospital staff newsletter. I laughed and agreed. A few days passed and the nurse called again saying they wanted to add a photo and blurb of me in the newsletter 😆 so I popped down for a picture with the bell.<br /><br />I'm still trying to get my hands on the newsletter, but I met another nurse today who told me she had loved the poem and that she had shown it to her friend (another staff member), who had recently been diagnosed with breast cancer, and that it had helped her feel much better. 💛<br /><br />I have been asked to mentor for the Sunflower Warriors 🌻 support group and am applying to become a 'Big Sister' too. 🌼</span><br />
<div>
<br /></div>
:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-55320235302042728352019-03-09T14:45:00.000-08:002019-03-14T10:21:26.599-07:00Radiated!! Lashes & Brows <br />
<h3>
Radiotherapy... the procedure</h3>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
As I walk through the hospital, accompanied by either Tom, Dad, Mum (visited for 9 days) or Step Mom, we pass through the giant revolving glass walls, into the Cancer Care Centre, pass the volunteer dressed in a blue waistcoat, down the concrete steps surrounding colour-changing baubles... pausing at the reception desk to check in and find out which waiting room (A or B) we should head to.</div>
<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
My chauffer/loved one would head to the waiting room and find a seat whilst I hung my outer layers up & put my snowboots/shoes in the cupboard/locker. I'd hop into a changing room, swap my vest & t-shirt for a gown, (sometimes I'd put on blue booties) and join my fam in the waiting room.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJ4fIO6qSZzcbj_vJtlk-_YB8jCBYPxcn_oJR0yfE37bKw9S0nrNoE684eVMn43BYV7ERlawtahmZ0-Jt3w6Z3r2fltZ5W6L_ScbVB2SJStN-WcZTYQVQ8rOJeNpiJHQ2OKX5IM9NscuQ/s1600/20190215_090750.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJ4fIO6qSZzcbj_vJtlk-_YB8jCBYPxcn_oJR0yfE37bKw9S0nrNoE684eVMn43BYV7ERlawtahmZ0-Jt3w6Z3r2fltZ5W6L_ScbVB2SJStN-WcZTYQVQ8rOJeNpiJHQ2OKX5IM9NscuQ/s320/20190215_090750.jpg" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinLY3QVENY8Dp_geHIBGVraW0dDbNpKAqDngczCExuFvH4gYmdv1lwm2nXR7NolQXJJ6YLIix9N1-9omoaPsdZrYzDG9tHwXFILV_JFdlTEROG0Juvg6Kabssc-MfUnOSSLwIbrzxFSwQ/s1600/20190308_082747.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinLY3QVENY8Dp_geHIBGVraW0dDbNpKAqDngczCExuFvH4gYmdv1lwm2nXR7NolQXJJ6YLIix9N1-9omoaPsdZrYzDG9tHwXFILV_JFdlTEROG0Juvg6Kabssc-MfUnOSSLwIbrzxFSwQ/s320/20190308_082747.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;">
One by one we'd be greeted and called to one of the 3 working machines (a 4th machine yet to be added), by a Radiotherapist and led through a corridor into a room made of lead and concrete (this sounds bad but the walls were pleasant colours, a picture on the ceiling etc.).</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Two radiotherapists per session, I would plant my booty on the carbon fiber table and swing my legs round, my knees resting bent on a plastic hump (designed to keep my centre still I imagine). </div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Removing my arms from my gown, I would lay back, lifting my arms over my head and resting my upper arms in rests, my hands holding onto handles.</div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi03DaB8kgI-kWdfjKDanOOGLjidkhRE1FvZkfaxZw3SHUAIOIty8MZIfjiCHenDtD9jq3UI8oUtKKSX1DoKyPvYHnymI4wjx65fUQI9g9CVHKtenMLILym9leshrBC9_v0t7VAS7FDBWk/s1600/20190212_111215.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi03DaB8kgI-kWdfjKDanOOGLjidkhRE1FvZkfaxZw3SHUAIOIty8MZIfjiCHenDtD9jq3UI8oUtKKSX1DoKyPvYHnymI4wjx65fUQI9g9CVHKtenMLILym9leshrBC9_v0t7VAS7FDBWk/s640/20190212_111215.jpg" width="640" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguD412_XSOD_ZM_5nv9OZ8yUPniPs9T-eQ6VOaJnmdtNVliATDyN5RiWjEvqbyObhlNUPU8uw5xG9rJpG1NCSBRarbVZowkSQUuYcOr9EitBp-cjydiEm-17c1XythGFeKVyx1pSXRCuo/s1600/20190212_111208.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguD412_XSOD_ZM_5nv9OZ8yUPniPs9T-eQ6VOaJnmdtNVliATDyN5RiWjEvqbyObhlNUPU8uw5xG9rJpG1NCSBRarbVZowkSQUuYcOr9EitBp-cjydiEm-17c1XythGFeKVyx1pSXRCuo/s320/20190212_111208.jpg" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtFSZxEkFdW_EA4AdsFFHB63gtEnFlKk6PiUccQLOL1lmvDDiiDdO3NznndFBtTjLjJgRXsNLXCkUm3s0CDg2mm1xKtNdekkCKqaQsAQm3VLUjfuZergX89FX5YfmpRTyC2-rv5MQMt_Y/s1600/20190212_111201.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtFSZxEkFdW_EA4AdsFFHB63gtEnFlKk6PiUccQLOL1lmvDDiiDdO3NznndFBtTjLjJgRXsNLXCkUm3s0CDg2mm1xKtNdekkCKqaQsAQm3VLUjfuZergX89FX5YfmpRTyC2-rv5MQMt_Y/s320/20190212_111201.jpg" width="160" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5beUiOwQ8s-V5F7CK2jOaoCbac5_CU76m2vvEEHKhvzhGhO6wRP21pLqdws67eJ16dHDw_b3btzcRdtW-djZZDma_y7sZt11NCMpLmZRVsFNgCPo1xErBIyMHbdys38FAaVFR_8c9n1c/s1600/20190212_111221.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5beUiOwQ8s-V5F7CK2jOaoCbac5_CU76m2vvEEHKhvzhGhO6wRP21pLqdws67eJ16dHDw_b3btzcRdtW-djZZDma_y7sZt11NCMpLmZRVsFNgCPo1xErBIyMHbdys38FAaVFR_8c9n1c/s400/20190212_111221.jpg" width="400" /></a> </div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-UlbCQWB60_iIzSjAKKriqGO05MDpbGxnvf8yf-mPKCAz4GuRn8ELWpYc8Kw-ANJI9rxklvRefqlxHxWiPA9qfjzUYHs3v8u7quCKOqURD3RDl2BhUgC45MUtHZZIyUMdK-V5r2CJwYA/s1600/20190304_111414.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-UlbCQWB60_iIzSjAKKriqGO05MDpbGxnvf8yf-mPKCAz4GuRn8ELWpYc8Kw-ANJI9rxklvRefqlxHxWiPA9qfjzUYHs3v8u7quCKOqURD3RDl2BhUgC45MUtHZZIyUMdK-V5r2CJwYA/s320/20190304_111414.jpg" width="160" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-hf00EweUiOxnMggXPPHAVIo1rx3hA2zCRP7l-mBQ3FMaKmFZmn4hHHeaQJWUlOm5lgf8WXNQpKDg7NwwNVrtQJmD2QR2tptev437ocwa9qzAqTnug-7UHKAlk7ooflsynCSI8N8QUE8/s1600/20190302_180851.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-hf00EweUiOxnMggXPPHAVIo1rx3hA2zCRP7l-mBQ3FMaKmFZmn4hHHeaQJWUlOm5lgf8WXNQpKDg7NwwNVrtQJmD2QR2tptev437ocwa9qzAqTnug-7UHKAlk7ooflsynCSI8N8QUE8/s320/20190302_180851.jpg" width="320" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihr7rMSxc6YhpzL-GrL8QjK1AjgQtBuGXB36Mpqi2qTtTsPTw6r8wfvhQsA_dq4E9y0mjb5SbYTY3SMf2fyfCs98p0dr9i2fSwAVhV9l2rqbehBLyslH5qB5GHGyg3Z9kGxWpv7js97yY/s1600/20190227_111935.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihr7rMSxc6YhpzL-GrL8QjK1AjgQtBuGXB36Mpqi2qTtTsPTw6r8wfvhQsA_dq4E9y0mjb5SbYTY3SMf2fyfCs98p0dr9i2fSwAVhV9l2rqbehBLyslH5qB5GHGyg3Z9kGxWpv7js97yY/s320/20190227_111935.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlTyyglenuou8TY5GxgiqY3vLeKM8MlWsyzxXJmModYgsi-sXfxJeILASW5qiKjMKs1cBANtzfzrp2rmjIkWGWNSyIoOBYSzZiFuVBdqgy-6MXvLHorgCmwIKNnQbfFZNCKtvtJgJNvMA/s1600/IMG_20190227_111426_113.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlTyyglenuou8TY5GxgiqY3vLeKM8MlWsyzxXJmModYgsi-sXfxJeILASW5qiKjMKs1cBANtzfzrp2rmjIkWGWNSyIoOBYSzZiFuVBdqgy-6MXvLHorgCmwIKNnQbfFZNCKtvtJgJNvMA/s320/IMG_20190227_111426_113.jpg" width="172" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivkKHxdl5cT9ryuheO-gUYg_ryLGyc4P2CZv_PmLpRmQU9Z1Dk7Kzh9yE5AMuypJEnpk4rOOp0YBCM1dIeBb9ikdUJ5DRcrrIOtAInUKCUi0mxUc35PPPnhUGSueocV4GpWMf75AX1QEc/s1600/20190226_161453.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivkKHxdl5cT9ryuheO-gUYg_ryLGyc4P2CZv_PmLpRmQU9Z1Dk7Kzh9yE5AMuypJEnpk4rOOp0YBCM1dIeBb9ikdUJ5DRcrrIOtAInUKCUi0mxUc35PPPnhUGSueocV4GpWMf75AX1QEc/s320/20190226_161453.jpg" width="160" /></a>💜</div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1sGhGIqbaeJBgJV1f8ReXqtLthX5IowWXe2uh3-DK0g4BBbSJ2yrtRER8NJeiw5HPKQWfJIK5n8Qo9GPctTou0i7MnJAUmt7bBr3XmGouQUwHAVEybM44tHMqJp___nj8e-25yybcPk0/s1600/IMG_20190212_110139_843.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1sGhGIqbaeJBgJV1f8ReXqtLthX5IowWXe2uh3-DK0g4BBbSJ2yrtRER8NJeiw5HPKQWfJIK5n8Qo9GPctTou0i7MnJAUmt7bBr3XmGouQUwHAVEybM44tHMqJp___nj8e-25yybcPk0/s320/IMG_20190212_110139_843.jpg" width="172" /></a></div>
<br />
<br />
<h3>
Pre-rads jitters</h3>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
The morning of my first treatment (7th February), I searched online for the best way to treat my skin before and after receiving radiation. One site came up with '7 questions to ask your doctor before receiving radiation'. I was already fearful and on the fence about radiation; I had considered declining treatment more than once. However, many people, including my cousin who is a radiologist, reassured me that treatments are not prescribed lightly and that discussions, meetings etc. are held with doctors, nurses etc. I also heard from a university ex boyfriend, who collaborates the radiotherapy machines, who also assures me that it "works".</div>
<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
I did fire a few of the questions I had found at the Radiotherapist who had a pre-treatment meeting with my Dad and I, but as I lay, scared and unsure that I was doing the right thing, I was offered music and as the volume was turned up, the playlist was half way through a song that triggered all sorts of emotions for me.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Hotel California by The Eagles was one of my Dad's favourite songs.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
It's also the song I crashed my car to. I had a friend sitting behind me, his surfboard resting across the passenger seat and backseat/parcel shelf; my body board & our wetsuit gear in the car somewhere. Crusing country lanes, the lady in the car in front of me appeared to drive round the corner, spot her son and his friend on their bikes on the right side of the road/layby and pulled over to the left, suddenly, without indication. I was driving my parents' SEAT Ibiza (which I believe needed new tyres) and shunted the lady further left than she'd intended; through a break in the hedge and into a field. I honestly don't remember what happened next... I assumed we exchanged details but all I remember is that Hotel California was still playing when I got back into the driver's seat.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<h3>
Change of focus</h3>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Anyway!! As I lay on the table in the empty room feeling cold, alone and very Hand Maid's Tale-ish, for the longest 3-4mins (all in my head; the therapists were all lovely), I fought back tears. Some of which escaped and tricked down my cheeks into my ears. Unable to move, I urged myself to lay still.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
HG later reminded me that I would usually embrace this as an interesting experience and be fascinated by the treatments that science is allowing us to receive.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
How Lucky I Am.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
So from session #2 onwards; following an honest FB post and more overwhelming support, I approached radiation with a calm, focused, appreciative mind.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Sometimes I sang, sometimes I closed my eyes & breathed/dozed.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
I often watched the machine/s doing their thang.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<h3>
The process continued</h3>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
The therapists would call out numbers (listed on 3 computer screens around the room) to each other and line the table up with the machine according to a laser/light ruler. The ruler between my boobs had to line up with my dot tattoo (of which I have 5) at 94.1 - other lasers shone from sides of the room (my neck is settled in a rest and I can only really look up) to line up with the tattoos on my sides.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Once they had gently moved me into position, sliding my torso with a sheet beneath me, whilst reminding me not to move/help them, they let me know they were leaving the room and headed back through the short corridor to a room (behind 2 walls for protection from any escaped radiation) with computers. From there, they move an arm out from the huge machine behind me and the flat metallic disk extends from behind me and makes an electronic prolonged buzz noise as my chest was x-rayed.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
Next, the round head of the machine moved around and underneath me, lead needle fingers moving to change the shape of the radiation exposure behind the glass. The machine zapped me through my back (from/on an angle, not direct through my chest) and from various positions around me, then returned to the central position above me. The radiotherapists would return to the room and lower me down on the table, using a connected remote control. The final four treatments (of 20) were 'boosters' aimed from 2 angles at my tumor site.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
I am told the next 2-4 weeks could be increasingly painful, as the site continues to burn from inside and fatigue may also increase. I'm planning to return to my nanny job in 3 weeks time.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
In 2 weeks I begin taking daily hormone treatment pills, Tamoxifen and on 9th April I will be having my port removed.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
My hair is as fuzzy and soft as a gosling; my eye lashes are returning, much to my excitement (I was down to 5 😜) and this morning I noticed my eye brows are starting to grow too.</div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
I'm so excited, it feels like a fresh start!!</div>
<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihNMo3LEhd_H61kZEltHRJp-SrAwlPbiXsmqhP70ORYDei5kzOBLLh9hYIwMzEUI63AHqmM6Bqxl_GcwNpHIdagE-MThlpaNPh7VW-8oyEjBLMMT7SJK8QG8igRtjNOhjbSSpUWi6kBZ8/s1600/IMG_20190305_212446_741.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="863" data-original-width="1600" height="172" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihNMo3LEhd_H61kZEltHRJp-SrAwlPbiXsmqhP70ORYDei5kzOBLLh9hYIwMzEUI63AHqmM6Bqxl_GcwNpHIdagE-MThlpaNPh7VW-8oyEjBLMMT7SJK8QG8igRtjNOhjbSSpUWi6kBZ8/s320/IMG_20190305_212446_741.jpg" width="320" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOAOSC3HvxNDQsHoZ5FaOcep0duBDb_A_6necDn1E88B_2owjMjkglYp3U1zaXtnG3F8olBgtdyolQReSLuuohznsp9EgP5XNOw-UBxMowXBGKKgckAefdC1r3ZNCjgvCqFRqMeLs0Kvs/s1600/20190228_123841.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOAOSC3HvxNDQsHoZ5FaOcep0duBDb_A_6necDn1E88B_2owjMjkglYp3U1zaXtnG3F8olBgtdyolQReSLuuohznsp9EgP5XNOw-UBxMowXBGKKgckAefdC1r3ZNCjgvCqFRqMeLs0Kvs/s320/20190228_123841.jpg" width="160" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjc9LtsYCq8vlDptdsAbLcPeYcT6CmxniurSi5rOIPDnSOl01UE1_z2YSeXOCa6EKNmg9ZBA4st2_0vfJ8JI87Snl0UtcDFvRaxlAMmLx8Mijyz730COUUmhIi6EJe9RPfEdWW2Rw9UUQ/s1600/20190227_111935.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="100" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjc9LtsYCq8vlDptdsAbLcPeYcT6CmxniurSi5rOIPDnSOl01UE1_z2YSeXOCa6EKNmg9ZBA4st2_0vfJ8JI87Snl0UtcDFvRaxlAMmLx8Mijyz730COUUmhIi6EJe9RPfEdWW2Rw9UUQ/s200/20190227_111935.jpg" width="200" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi63Vf1rWnPNmm0leAHdE1cO1rwpjLZucUtfvKUsRorJjmoV19VHK9QS6PQdoY7oyxABhkeM_a_yyauWsP5kGRirYNZRxQLad82lugWUMYumN7lxvnFCDuwg4YJfSO7of1Wd0BHmMQtr2s/s1600/20190216_202745.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="100" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi63Vf1rWnPNmm0leAHdE1cO1rwpjLZucUtfvKUsRorJjmoV19VHK9QS6PQdoY7oyxABhkeM_a_yyauWsP5kGRirYNZRxQLad82lugWUMYumN7lxvnFCDuwg4YJfSO7of1Wd0BHmMQtr2s/s200/20190216_202745.jpg" width="200" /></a></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihXbowHst7hts0sn-Em2Te-8RUXLTR1kGQSX9XrxN1XZ-sunCVwiOW5ej2zduP-y8RInXsp0Xndt9NjZbl4lc_1S_hVikJWckXFdKrvBmTTQJBnQSZjccz4CuJY_6SksL6i0lnXnOpQpk/s1600/20190306_104851.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihXbowHst7hts0sn-Em2Te-8RUXLTR1kGQSX9XrxN1XZ-sunCVwiOW5ej2zduP-y8RInXsp0Xndt9NjZbl4lc_1S_hVikJWckXFdKrvBmTTQJBnQSZjccz4CuJY_6SksL6i0lnXnOpQpk/s200/20190306_104851.jpg" width="100" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9LuazDZi5g5F3WHJlyPdTlJ4wDPu3lbmHtWmsNMlqdmaRbjFYRVJO2Nd5q-aHnai7ILaEl6oBgH2xcLXx5EDWJBj50rHGI2CwpVjj0FeumqHw8_NfqYTpFGCyCn155DWVvb0yhK2_uNA/s1600/20190306_065953.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9LuazDZi5g5F3WHJlyPdTlJ4wDPu3lbmHtWmsNMlqdmaRbjFYRVJO2Nd5q-aHnai7ILaEl6oBgH2xcLXx5EDWJBj50rHGI2CwpVjj0FeumqHw8_NfqYTpFGCyCn155DWVvb0yhK2_uNA/s200/20190306_065953.jpg" width="100" /></a> </div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXl5YsoxwtrwRhIRSQTyqyfCQtbpiNQvsl65AZAUnCgL3XpEQWScuU48OnNxfmpS_wGtjbkyzKiWFjqeKxdyr9qJrNDTiAaSsnq1EJgODqwr4AIpyvcumFUVp1XsrMxqiSmCS7aX5-eoM/s1600/20190223_150326_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXl5YsoxwtrwRhIRSQTyqyfCQtbpiNQvsl65AZAUnCgL3XpEQWScuU48OnNxfmpS_wGtjbkyzKiWFjqeKxdyr9qJrNDTiAaSsnq1EJgODqwr4AIpyvcumFUVp1XsrMxqiSmCS7aX5-eoM/s320/20190223_150326_HDR.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjE92Eb8xI21xo0WwDWfiySQBR1RIhpCgn3YiV43lgpQP6W_Xtetkd76PQkOiT2ixTbvUP7TWRgbROSAY_az9W2pWsKZrRXF3NIW5qYw7nvQewAbVlwpWiDCFXfoF3WP-EwopKR_mdqAU/s1600/Snapchat-1692206783.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="862" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjE92Eb8xI21xo0WwDWfiySQBR1RIhpCgn3YiV43lgpQP6W_Xtetkd76PQkOiT2ixTbvUP7TWRgbROSAY_az9W2pWsKZrRXF3NIW5qYw7nvQewAbVlwpWiDCFXfoF3WP-EwopKR_mdqAU/s320/Snapchat-1692206783.jpg" width="172" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheMS6jlT91bLsjG9x0HKvfWq7oqaR0Nnp34kfwH4gNJUQosurp_2AlcRpBCJBHJc_ctQJSWDewN0HnRnyrzQKtsYWkyLFVYdVtIIZNNMvWg5Mhz1BDg5di6EjXvFI8xwLep5pTOEP4R8c/s1600/Snapchat-615130389.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="941" data-original-width="1600" height="188" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheMS6jlT91bLsjG9x0HKvfWq7oqaR0Nnp34kfwH4gNJUQosurp_2AlcRpBCJBHJc_ctQJSWDewN0HnRnyrzQKtsYWkyLFVYdVtIIZNNMvWg5Mhz1BDg5di6EjXvFI8xwLep5pTOEP4R8c/s320/Snapchat-615130389.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<br />:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-64686021819156064452019-03-09T13:11:00.000-08:002019-03-09T13:11:40.683-08:00It's All About Timing<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I just read my last post <a href="http://ebullientbee.blogspot.com/?zx=af17e8c00b8c6bb1" target="_blank">(Motivation: Life After B.C)</a> and wanted to note that today I spoke to the mayor, who was behind me in the queue/line to pay for my panini today. I have met him a few times before - at an event at the fine dining restaurant I served at, and he also shook my hand, handed me a medal and had a photo taken with me after a charity 4km swim across Lake Couchiching in August 2017. <a href="http://www.cacsimcoemuskoka.ca/sun-city-swim.html" target="_blank">Sun City Swim</a></span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I was actually signed up for, sponsored and very ready, training-wise, to swim the same charity swim in 2018, but I ended up having a lumpectomy (plus 3 lymph nodes), 2 days before the swim. Hmph. 😖😆<br /><br />Anyway, I spoke to the mayor - Steve Clarke, briefly, about my hopes to offer the town parenting support, and asked him where he would suggest I begin in addressing organisations. He advised that behind me was the lady who worked for victim support (however in my panini-purchasing distraction, I didn't end up speaking to her). Mr Clarke went on to say that if I called his office next week, they would give me a list of contacts. I mentioned the <a href="http://www.cacsimcoemuskoka.ca/" target="_blank">Child Advocacy Centre</a> (whom I have volunteered for in the past and for whom the Sun City Swim raises money) and Big Brothers, Big Sisters - whom I have recently decided to become a mentor through... I dashed away and opened another sneaky page and just completed the volunteer application page! 😃<br /><br />I spoke briefly to the Mayor about my hair regrowth, following chemotherapy, and my journey. Another lady sitting nearby (it's a very cosy cafe 😋) mentioned my hair too and both she and the mayor touched it (this may sound strange, but I mentioned how it was ridiculously soft and how I was making everyone touch it). I likes to share the love! 🌈 They both mentioned my attitude.<br /><br />I have had lotsssss of peoles telling me what an inspiration I am etc etc.<br /><br />It's such a funny feeling to be told that. Yet it's kind of something I've always wanted to be... so it's pretty cool that I can be it, just by being me. I just don't feel mad about cancer. But I have been lucky. However, I don't mind dying (obviously doing what I can to prevent it happening any time soon), I would just feel bad for those affected by it.<br /><br />I know I'm rambling. It's also funny to me, that I keep sitting down to write about my radiotherapy experience and I'm now two blogs down, finished 20 treatments yesterday (International Women's Day woohoo!) and haven't described it yet.<br /><br />I'm excited and want to really kick myself up the arse this year to actually grab life by the bollocks.<br /><br />Kthxbai xXx</span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0Lake Couchiching, Ontario, Canada44.6276423 -79.392792344.446973799999995 -79.715515799999991 44.8083108 -79.0700688tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-84375880586361747432019-03-02T10:28:00.001-08:002019-03-02T11:00:17.907-08:00Motivation - Life After B.C<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It's been a (hectic) few weeks. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br />I've been listening to the audio book of You Are A Badass - How to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life. I have missed it during the past few weeks so absorbed another dosage just now. I've also purchased Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert (and had The Power of Now - <span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">Eckhart Tolle sent to a friend, recommended by another friend).<br /><br />I am feeling drawn towards searching for and embracing my creativity... why am I here?<br />What am I destined to achieve? Leap out of my comfort zone and into the unknown... I just have to get my arse in gear. Take Action!<br /><br />A friend (breast cancer survivor & mentor) recently heard me talking about the work I did in England in supporting parents and families. She told me that this was where my passion lies and that I'm starving the world of my useful skills (or words to that effect), if I don't put my energy into supporting others.<br /><br />After the conversation, I felt driven. I came home and wrote a list!<br />I start to feel helpless, lost and overwhelmed but then I remember that I can do this.<br />I just need to take some steps.<br /><br />So.<br />I'm intending to make contact with all the people I know locally - teachers, support workers, YMCA, Child Advocacy Centre, family centre, libraries, the police, Women's Shelter, Children's Aid, New Path, Family Connexions.<br /><br />I don't actually have contacts at all of those places, but I know of more than I thought I knew!<br /><br />This post was going to lead into talking about my radiotherapy experience, but I have just joined a couple of breast cancer support groups on FB and I'm more excited about my future at this point!<br /><br />Here's to holding myself accountable! 👊</span></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-85449267146509346692019-01-02T11:05:00.000-08:002019-01-02T11:07:00.927-08:00Happy New Hair?<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;">Wow time has passed.<br />My penultimate chemo (number seven) was 2 days ago - New Year's Eve/</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><br />HG woke me from my sofa slumber at 11:15pm to make sure I didn't miss the welcoming of 2019! 🎉<br /><br />Overall, I've been very lucky during chemotherapy and haven't suffered too much. At the change of drug (treatments five to eight), I felt anxious. Not knowing how the effects of the Taxol would affect me was like being back at the beginning of chemo. I was worried that the 10 steriod pills (5 at 6pm & 5 at 10pm) the night before chemo would keep me up all night. I slept okay and the only major effects I experienced were swollen, sore hands for a couple of days - possibly from the overlap in chemo drugs, because I thankfully haven't had it happen again. Other side effects include neuropathy (tingly hands/feet), which I've been affected by minimally.</span></span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;">I have started having hot flushes at night though.</span></span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;">Interesting & strange... I haven't had a period since the first few weeks of chemo and we've hardly had sex (whaaaah!).</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><br />I have been taking Grastofil, which is a brand name for Filagrastim. "<span style="background-color: white;">Filgrastim belongs to the family of medications known as granulocyte colony stimulating factors (G-CSF). It helps the bone marrow produce white blood cells, which help the body fight infection." (Thanks, Google). So I initially injected my stomach (alternating sides) 11 times, starting 48hrs after my last chemo had ended. They live in the fridge so going out for a day/afternoon takes pre-planning! There is also an injection which can be taken once per chemo round, however this seems to be for those with "better" insurance than us, but also seems to cause more intense side effects - bone pain. </span><br /><br />My white blood cell count (WBC) was initially very high; beginning at 13.6 (4-11 is normal), after the second blood test showed my WBCs had reached 28.4, my oncologist reduced me to 8 jabs. I've mostly been taking 8 and this seemed ok for the first chemo treatments, but my levels rocketed (changed to 6 jabs) then have crashed down to 3.3 so I've been put back up to 8 jabs.<br /><br />Neutrophils are the infection-fighting white blood cells, and a friend had mentioned keeping an eye on mine.<br />Last Friday, mine were 1.3 - with the minimum they usually like being 1.5. I'm a really bad germophobe, but have been attempting to stay away from crowds, watching out for coughs & colds etc.<br /><br />I spend a lot of my time at home these days; looking after myself! I've had lots of visitors, packages and messages of love.<br /><br />I cannot believe there is only more more chemo treatment to go! I've become quite happy in my chemo hibernation cave!<br /><br />Following the final treatment - number eight - I will have my usual 2 weeks 'recovery', jabs etc. then a couple more weeks until radiation treatment ('therapy') begins. This will be closer to my Dad's, so the plan is that I'll stay with him & my stepmum a few nights a week (this could help keep me healthier & munching less but we'll see!).<br /><br />My stepmum is on the keto diet and my Dad is a pescatarian. A friend has mentioned the Blood Type Diet recently (anyone have any info?) and I'm also being nudged towards a naturopath (Tom is very anti), who will most likely want to sell me more appointments, expensive blood tests and numerous supplements. I recently asked a fellow breast cancer survivor friend, who said she was now a 'nutritarian'. I think mostly plant-based suits me/my body - as much as HG raves about animal protein being the best/quickest. I'm avoiding red meat as much as possible and chicken (I had unofficially given up turkey) unless it's hormone free/organic. I'm still eating fish here and there.<br /><br />I think this is long enough! I'll add some pics! 😃</span></span><br />
<div>
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOJuqxauy1GWT4Vn6g_4OB-oehnMdcYplkrxHvoFNof80KKFxZrrgENnv6lgnTFufMApGXZjGpBDobzP2GrWBxC8NrY0Lt9hjDP6CVOu4rdSbLHr2K6CYSj9roRTT7b4dCHzfUzV6Q_NY/s1600/20181230_135250.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1137" data-original-width="1600" height="227" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOJuqxauy1GWT4Vn6g_4OB-oehnMdcYplkrxHvoFNof80KKFxZrrgENnv6lgnTFufMApGXZjGpBDobzP2GrWBxC8NrY0Lt9hjDP6CVOu4rdSbLHr2K6CYSj9roRTT7b4dCHzfUzV6Q_NY/s320/20181230_135250.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />I've been editing my eyebrows to help emphasise them!</span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEVeUpiEgkgCHcQuqrMFvzUw8lyjBiJe7jepbellJRernRLhfKaX3lBig8ROKojRvV1fjFy6mGR4FZJCNMFEx2KPeXOvQuo6gUEBN4fPj_GpSorFzCQ5o7iOrX-fwETjvQP5pFPCPdcBY/s1600/20181230_093421.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEVeUpiEgkgCHcQuqrMFvzUw8lyjBiJe7jepbellJRernRLhfKaX3lBig8ROKojRvV1fjFy6mGR4FZJCNMFEx2KPeXOvQuo6gUEBN4fPj_GpSorFzCQ5o7iOrX-fwETjvQP5pFPCPdcBY/s320/20181230_093421.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />We are very lucky and received some cool gifts & vouchers for Crimbo!</span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtqwqEpueWLAd2TNIBBGHuCHCWOY9AB84U7PiucHRggU_EgmJYN_1_OvCPrd9vprFr8NjJY1cSgPa04_TQIpwM9Go4E4MvDZwrxl0-xlK9ZI8iqwZ0UFqoq4C3oLK6Asn3SAfhP2dURD0/s1600/20181230_151119_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtqwqEpueWLAd2TNIBBGHuCHCWOY9AB84U7PiucHRggU_EgmJYN_1_OvCPrd9vprFr8NjJY1cSgPa04_TQIpwM9Go4E4MvDZwrxl0-xlK9ZI8iqwZ0UFqoq4C3oLK6Asn3SAfhP2dURD0/s640/20181230_151119_HDR.jpg" width="640" /></a><br />Day before chemo #7<br />Bass lake Provincial Park</span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTZP9fDZ41evWGd6sL7SjsdTKU4TRzygj5Gj4FMCwtoXU7slsQNCH30x13CPgNeL-svBx5i-jv9B3P9zyRNkI5bWZVgTG-ucTOOCNA8Mraqg1K009KGYeQaZybabmWyDisxlUOIeXLgp0/s1600/IMG_20190101_005915_978.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1350" data-original-width="1080" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTZP9fDZ41evWGd6sL7SjsdTKU4TRzygj5Gj4FMCwtoXU7slsQNCH30x13CPgNeL-svBx5i-jv9B3P9zyRNkI5bWZVgTG-ucTOOCNA8Mraqg1K009KGYeQaZybabmWyDisxlUOIeXLgp0/s400/IMG_20190101_005915_978.jpg" width="320" /></span></a><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large; text-align: left;">Testing hats in the Oncology waiting room!</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGYy3uJAa_x7vK_E_twplIkz8syjDobaKgG1k9iriFHRniGMw3kMPmJsBw3E3hJEZmGMHrxgF2nYG6UVmALV0M1PTN5TI05tD-ycA_8SRqdcOWd7hQ4ydMiDRSiyZaqQZ3dQ8hA4aELBw/s1600/20181231_110638.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGYy3uJAa_x7vK_E_twplIkz8syjDobaKgG1k9iriFHRniGMw3kMPmJsBw3E3hJEZmGMHrxgF2nYG6UVmALV0M1PTN5TI05tD-ycA_8SRqdcOWd7hQ4ydMiDRSiyZaqQZ3dQ8hA4aELBw/s400/20181231_110638.jpg" width="200" /></a></span></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"></span><br />
<div style="text-align: right;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">Testing all the vital signs... 31/12/18</span></div>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">
</span><br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWb9xoKuyMS7fNLUid8Ce3-5vIQ7ek0BP3NcCIz9vUj5T4LZrmuPZ22HXm5TcgM1m15YZpUss7K7X7V8iLjLfZ0Fb1wEQkTkU7njLDiIw7edSHRe0_GTgI1LzjKAGffqCAO_z1oVQQyPs/s1600/20181231_110730.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWb9xoKuyMS7fNLUid8Ce3-5vIQ7ek0BP3NcCIz9vUj5T4LZrmuPZ22HXm5TcgM1m15YZpUss7K7X7V8iLjLfZ0Fb1wEQkTkU7njLDiIw7edSHRe0_GTgI1LzjKAGffqCAO_z1oVQQyPs/s320/20181231_110730.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />Crussssshing it!</span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVOTP2j2HZd5MuT4I4gZYoBlZ6rykvWu-JRgypdB6YvXEgYm5T3KnZIxxcCFBcRRY9b1h-jbC6SBBTxnMsWCP-cVgrzS5RtNqmlCdlzmtkuDt0aHfQZiFS5zHoEAJG3Zq1IBXbu0XnwFg/s1600/20190101_151249_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVOTP2j2HZd5MuT4I4gZYoBlZ6rykvWu-JRgypdB6YvXEgYm5T3KnZIxxcCFBcRRY9b1h-jbC6SBBTxnMsWCP-cVgrzS5RtNqmlCdlzmtkuDt0aHfQZiFS5zHoEAJG3Zq1IBXbu0XnwFg/s640/20190101_151249_HDR.jpg" width="640" /></a><br />New Years Day 2019 - Laughlin Falls</span></div>
<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLBwdQ3HME8AoUenwR8CO9Lg5tyVu5_OPwYcAuEdlemtBTSfJzLNm2QKrp0dV4y14d8gwY9QW8HYzbHzxguHPVj10XgX_PYzaMYJnNRJ-bmbMHF-a5gd9KNxrDpn9xRWs-BmjE7Xrnqz8/s1600/20190101_155107_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLBwdQ3HME8AoUenwR8CO9Lg5tyVu5_OPwYcAuEdlemtBTSfJzLNm2QKrp0dV4y14d8gwY9QW8HYzbHzxguHPVj10XgX_PYzaMYJnNRJ-bmbMHF-a5gd9KNxrDpn9xRWs-BmjE7Xrnqz8/s640/20190101_155107_HDR.jpg" width="640" /></a><br />Bass Lake 1st Jan 2019</span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQPdCz8xp4f8kws1eqHXZDrxMp4bh2ZfGFO0giRK1PF3dR2fOsNZvqGjFgv1yi8Ev3BSpnVl4U2xFhK2cK6LL8uCgeol04JOMfuTwqJvkdDfZj86p4_x9M37VgwHCcL2owcx7ChOHokHk/s1600/20190101_185626.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQPdCz8xp4f8kws1eqHXZDrxMp4bh2ZfGFO0giRK1PF3dR2fOsNZvqGjFgv1yi8Ev3BSpnVl4U2xFhK2cK6LL8uCgeol04JOMfuTwqJvkdDfZj86p4_x9M37VgwHCcL2owcx7ChOHokHk/s640/20190101_185626.jpg" width="640" /></a><br />Playful Puss!</span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2V9ampsDAvExR0YzemKBP4gXbDzeLBMC2GTu0pVqO8QPDgDoteiC5tv0vHjYOXkZDpeJf1ZQv9WhVt2YOoW-1rsagggtwio8OXiojxQgXOzyaJ3b4E2FeM5nrlaLJw3RUQlkQmTPs82U/s1600/20190102_080210.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2V9ampsDAvExR0YzemKBP4gXbDzeLBMC2GTu0pVqO8QPDgDoteiC5tv0vHjYOXkZDpeJf1ZQv9WhVt2YOoW-1rsagggtwio8OXiojxQgXOzyaJ3b4E2FeM5nrlaLJw3RUQlkQmTPs82U/s640/20190102_080210.jpg" width="640" /></a><br />Kitty love this morning! 2nd Jan<br /><br />HAPPY NEW YEAR!</span></div>
<div>
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-26157314954509444452018-10-15T12:02:00.001-07:002019-07-20T09:55:59.504-07:00Falling Up Hill<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I'm not one for wishing my life away.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">Chemo #1 was a week ago (tomorrow). Yesterday and today are Tom's days off. It was so nice to have him in bed with me & around after 4 days of him having to work. I cried, scared for our sex life... it's such a huge connecting part of us - brings us back together whenever we're off kilter and after 12yrs, it's still amazing. Sorry - TMI. WTF. IDGaS. My blog. 😝</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">There are so many ins and outs with cancer/chemotherapthy. It's invasive and intrusive.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">Knocks you off guard and tests every part of you - no matter how deep.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I'm sure I have not even begun to experience how testing it it going to be for the next few months.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">Cancer itself is... whatever - it is our own body performing, growing cells, as it believes it should.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">But it doesn't know the cells are attacking our own life source. It's a head fuck.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">Chemotherapy (and to follow, radiation & hormone treatment) is the method of treatment that humans/science have found which best treats our cells. By killing fast growing cells, they eliminate the cancer, but also any good cells. Different drugs cause various symptoms and side effects. The anti-sickness drugs create other side effects. Which aren't fun, but certainly beat puking until dehydration.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsUT0oMrxCOLBQ4Kcnw5KC65oJOIJ7M3Xbe1fthhMjZSyMHS8LttGrR7ke5AaL8qisJUjhOrkVcXTKV-QpE3cqmqDctiiT075rDib80FDxT5Vc0yuxOU2VHg0VgJty66_cm50BvYbK5Wc/s1600/chemo+sucks.webp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="640" data-original-width="442" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsUT0oMrxCOLBQ4Kcnw5KC65oJOIJ7M3Xbe1fthhMjZSyMHS8LttGrR7ke5AaL8qisJUjhOrkVcXTKV-QpE3cqmqDctiiT075rDib80FDxT5Vc0yuxOU2VHg0VgJty66_cm50BvYbK5Wc/s200/chemo+sucks.webp" width="138" /></a></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">I keep realising that... I won't need my hair bands/ties/clips... these thing seem small and silly.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">It's more the growing back part of the hair loss that may bug me. My friend had breast cancer/chemo 2 years ago and messaged me this morning with a photo of her cute bob, growing back beautifully.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: large;">I'm otherwise semi-excited about losing hair from other parts of my body! 😜</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtMtB2LzH-y1kgIwLJJNqP74Wt2ukSenXj-8mev591MhWBH8aF2fOZe7v8bWMVPhk6lK8rpp-yH6sMOa_4qMWI0QU9EVeIAwxfu_dMAT_ZZhrztikA3SL9h2QFgFQVYBrqJ3Lav-s7t5M/s1600/chemo+shave.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><img border="0" data-original-height="279" data-original-width="373" height="239" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtMtB2LzH-y1kgIwLJJNqP74Wt2ukSenXj-8mev591MhWBH8aF2fOZe7v8bWMVPhk6lK8rpp-yH6sMOa_4qMWI0QU9EVeIAwxfu_dMAT_ZZhrztikA3SL9h2QFgFQVYBrqJ3Lav-s7t5M/s320/chemo+shave.png" width="320" /></span></a></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">Speaking of which, I haven't managed to find any explicit details on sex during chemo. Because I have been technically pumped with poison, my fluids are potentially dangerous (queue lots of loo cleaning) and also, due to my "compromised immune system", I must also practice being more of a germophobe.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">So condoms are a requirement, but it's the oral/foreplay/relaxed nature of our love that we will need to tweak. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">Ever feel like you're living someone else's life?<br /><br />In other news, we are LOVING autumn/fall! 🍁</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhX72UwzdjZXttk1ZX-AmAAT_bBh2thhpl6bJ61p9Db_5q1Z73wCv71Dq89cB44PTnWpgn4wRyUGwQgd01jhYPPzV5rTX38ue2SME9mEmwFJ7aRztvcbHSxzp9b8jvVO8B4SKbAZOMyVd4/s1600/20181012_161124.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhX72UwzdjZXttk1ZX-AmAAT_bBh2thhpl6bJ61p9Db_5q1Z73wCv71Dq89cB44PTnWpgn4wRyUGwQgd01jhYPPzV5rTX38ue2SME9mEmwFJ7aRztvcbHSxzp9b8jvVO8B4SKbAZOMyVd4/s320/20181012_161124.jpg" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRdoUk-PC8A628JbmOGrYP3EPCtenn9zknvzj6DiPgALINp1NbBiTkCwLwXIsy_FEe5Am-LIPpPT3b7E91jysyZPOe5yEoIRrekO4T4wmN4tkKX13ffWvyoZhDNEpQNEx0ww7O2TnxmeY/s1600/IMG_20181014_131110_156.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRdoUk-PC8A628JbmOGrYP3EPCtenn9zknvzj6DiPgALINp1NbBiTkCwLwXIsy_FEe5Am-LIPpPT3b7E91jysyZPOe5yEoIRrekO4T4wmN4tkKX13ffWvyoZhDNEpQNEx0ww7O2TnxmeY/s320/IMG_20181014_131110_156.jpg" width="172" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrrWD3-qrlIEo3Sj5IFoRgTuhxQ2sE6h3B0QQTqE514j4SViJGOQA5jQlLcnomOosheBNYQBrBmFO9IYbEUYv70vAKngMl4K6NThdGktpmNhWQzTaXO502ST24waGAVlePG3zAVTo7T38/s1600/20181014_133552_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrrWD3-qrlIEo3Sj5IFoRgTuhxQ2sE6h3B0QQTqE514j4SViJGOQA5jQlLcnomOosheBNYQBrBmFO9IYbEUYv70vAKngMl4K6NThdGktpmNhWQzTaXO502ST24waGAVlePG3zAVTo7T38/s320/20181014_133552_HDR.jpg" width="160" /></a> </span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8KNo-mOAih9eP6xpwwZ-paCZyCQy7ovQ6zu2ZG8Hft2TFD4L-9eOH1XtS2z4VddIYx2mAPWv9dCrgaN5LScsc-Y0B7v7Bjf5_dS-JFkYXd0s1Pmr7rWhoVegQnGs6-Fn5F2U5_ugw-I4/s1600/20181014_131805.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br /><img border="0" data-original-height="663" data-original-width="1600" height="264" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8KNo-mOAih9eP6xpwwZ-paCZyCQy7ovQ6zu2ZG8Hft2TFD4L-9eOH1XtS2z4VddIYx2mAPWv9dCrgaN5LScsc-Y0B7v7Bjf5_dS-JFkYXd0s1Pmr7rWhoVegQnGs6-Fn5F2U5_ugw-I4/s640/20181014_131805.jpg" width="640" /></span></a></div>
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiacErTUtEyC69XSXUsCe3BdN_LiW6Ztl_nySsos6DNEVJ3m2nMiVgQ8WFcCirzcYbiCgilO6U60uqvHS82IOvnbq-_dPiPJNZpSYG8VuMaFQMSe1vTfQ7TRP4TzAJmbR-OIj44Uzmxx5o/s1600/IMG_20181014_170724_494.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiacErTUtEyC69XSXUsCe3BdN_LiW6Ztl_nySsos6DNEVJ3m2nMiVgQ8WFcCirzcYbiCgilO6U60uqvHS82IOvnbq-_dPiPJNZpSYG8VuMaFQMSe1vTfQ7TRP4TzAJmbR-OIj44Uzmxx5o/s320/IMG_20181014_170724_494.jpg" width="172" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLOAIA58R-XILsYmh7VPXMQikwXatvnum-lOWd8DE8PYjumD4JpzL5_rYZ2u1SRPuUxwCerDgl5PGwI_5cnQQwDCpDTo9-7mx13IIff7kOYVwS-PB4dC1L61Ta2krhSoAIlt39pPL3iPc/s1600/IMG_20181015_001626_346.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1300" data-original-width="1040" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLOAIA58R-XILsYmh7VPXMQikwXatvnum-lOWd8DE8PYjumD4JpzL5_rYZ2u1SRPuUxwCerDgl5PGwI_5cnQQwDCpDTo9-7mx13IIff7kOYVwS-PB4dC1L61Ta2krhSoAIlt39pPL3iPc/s320/IMG_20181015_001626_346.jpg" width="256" /></a></span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
</div>
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXBThDiFefB3o92n_LMMPpfPl-NLxxbY_iGy46SsDExXDr9StBYHqIOIoMiCHgEvTrbIbVUR98molaNZgaoaeUVwr1_QmZ-0GTJwPJG9l1tbG1ijFhfavcDBYpErdOQI2wN1ZzkQHgVf8/s1600/IMG_20181013_125815_786.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXBThDiFefB3o92n_LMMPpfPl-NLxxbY_iGy46SsDExXDr9StBYHqIOIoMiCHgEvTrbIbVUR98molaNZgaoaeUVwr1_QmZ-0GTJwPJG9l1tbG1ijFhfavcDBYpErdOQI2wN1ZzkQHgVf8/s320/IMG_20181013_125815_786.jpg" width="172" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiFLP1hmO_Eil9UNlvi-8zbDzR4n44BgviT8sYMSsYpyVIONJhk1BtqTgZGuRtZl54ZTvgmG-vAoTV04TZDtJv6BMMotxAuygMMbZ_b8KwLQCmvCmUA18CA__uXPMMaWvJV9ybCxz0u30/s1600/IMG_20181009_220935_273.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiFLP1hmO_Eil9UNlvi-8zbDzR4n44BgviT8sYMSsYpyVIONJhk1BtqTgZGuRtZl54ZTvgmG-vAoTV04TZDtJv6BMMotxAuygMMbZ_b8KwLQCmvCmUA18CA__uXPMMaWvJV9ybCxz0u30/s320/IMG_20181009_220935_273.jpg" width="320" /></a></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnN162WbBrZ8EtKhHobHn-uFPzohPg1e0RGbtqAxbYGtIa6S0ETQZoNjhb5bW4VhpPO-gE0b2WfGlY4aLRu3Cuvm5lRhlK02najd6J5RsOdqGcuhj2Ii9RTM4f7n3ukKsV8B_hsKwt0kM/s1600/finding+chemo.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="223" data-original-width="226" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnN162WbBrZ8EtKhHobHn-uFPzohPg1e0RGbtqAxbYGtIa6S0ETQZoNjhb5bW4VhpPO-gE0b2WfGlY4aLRu3Cuvm5lRhlK02najd6J5RsOdqGcuhj2Ii9RTM4f7n3ukKsV8B_hsKwt0kM/s1600/finding+chemo.jpg" /></span></a></div>
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<br />:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-81393487323938995032018-10-03T14:01:00.000-07:002018-10-15T12:07:33.263-07:00Chemo? Sweet...<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">I checked out the chemo suite today... it's two rooms, adjoining and there's a calm atmosphere. It's at the top of the hospital which gives a lovely view of roofs & trees. 🌲<br /><br />I was there to have my portacath re-dressed. It was implanted (under my skin on left side, below collar bone) on 25th September; 8 days ago under local anesthetic and I was excited(?) to get to see it! All healing well, chemo will commence in 6 days time!<br /><br />A portacath is a round device with a valve, attached to a line/catheter that is threaded into a vein and goes down into the heart. It can be used to give IV fluids, blood transfusions, chemotherapy & other drugs; it can also be used to take blood. It can stay in as long as is needed (must be used or flushed monthly).<br /><br />I met the 3 Oncology Nurses and they happily answered my questions. Every single one of the workers - Volunteers, Nurses, Doctors etc etc. have been totally lovely actually. 💖<br /><br />I learnt that I am currently "Chemo Niave", or as I like to say, a Chemo Virgin 😜, as my blood is still pure (lol) and hasn't yet been affected by chemotherapy (or as I like to call it, poison).<br /><br />So here's my port after insertion and today... </span><br />
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi60TiiREjl1JITES8sX0E-PBSCIIFl90PAOZ0s-EIv9qq-kNa6osSBbyi4iciNhDfDrMaQPzei5NWZiuLLffImI9jyjPF-F5J-ECb07wxvcUYpu0lyyNh4MgKK9F3DHyd_A8Ji2zLXsJE/s1600/20180927_100002.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi60TiiREjl1JITES8sX0E-PBSCIIFl90PAOZ0s-EIv9qq-kNa6osSBbyi4iciNhDfDrMaQPzei5NWZiuLLffImI9jyjPF-F5J-ECb07wxvcUYpu0lyyNh4MgKK9F3DHyd_A8Ji2zLXsJE/s320/20180927_100002.jpg" width="160" /></span></a><span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinau3vYqQd7FE5xUItqB9yFclXgAb2j0sJcEbbi-vOuwfbRHT4YW7L3PWS9KnUQVYx2XUuOAEsCmh-6sV3eyOV5IGltbh2au6u2ZS1daqYD1aiNgcyTbSuk5Yf2-ExSWWvNoV20IT8BeM/s1600/20181003_143950.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinau3vYqQd7FE5xUItqB9yFclXgAb2j0sJcEbbi-vOuwfbRHT4YW7L3PWS9KnUQVYx2XUuOAEsCmh-6sV3eyOV5IGltbh2au6u2ZS1daqYD1aiNgcyTbSuk5Yf2-ExSWWvNoV20IT8BeM/s400/20181003_143950.jpg" width="200" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSRLcW7PaTi7nQ79N8ZyEdJVRUj7_QQG07olqD9NSYKfNi8x9hyrnM1FfPegBWKn9e6JNsBSqoxeqLNU-AD5VvLeavstMcvmf2jQzRtRfrLaJgo984qomJSWYc2T_zzPp9VGBF5uQCSoc/s1600/IMG_20181003_144642_949.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="863" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSRLcW7PaTi7nQ79N8ZyEdJVRUj7_QQG07olqD9NSYKfNi8x9hyrnM1FfPegBWKn9e6JNsBSqoxeqLNU-AD5VvLeavstMcvmf2jQzRtRfrLaJgo984qomJSWYc2T_zzPp9VGBF5uQCSoc/s320/IMG_20181003_144642_949.jpg" width="172" /></a> </span></div>
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br />At the weekend, I joined a 5km walk called Race for the Cure; raising awareness & money for breast cancer etc. I knew I'd be with HG, Dad & his lady but wasn't aware 3 of their friends would be joining and then, once walking, was handed a phone to speak to Dad's Lady's son, daughter & their partners & pup - who were also walking in their town, Winnipeg!! Wowzer. Such love & support!<br /><br />Here is my crew, warming up!!</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6Lxz3WHDir0EfwIkVUIKvpUqLjGtek-pk-pltH2jhpUJ8T9nsLJftksZIrJKYF9GnOUbBM-L37tZtzAG53z36zV_jpu4Ih7K2MidYO-VgF72NnvLQT2i6QV5FpFWIsC7JKGLBS_eYakU/s1600/20180930_094648.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6Lxz3WHDir0EfwIkVUIKvpUqLjGtek-pk-pltH2jhpUJ8T9nsLJftksZIrJKYF9GnOUbBM-L37tZtzAG53z36zV_jpu4Ih7K2MidYO-VgF72NnvLQT2i6QV5FpFWIsC7JKGLBS_eYakU/s640/20180930_094648.jpg" width="640" /></span></a></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUEhVZsk4hwNQ1eUk-A8MImq_hVkA0l63F7YL26GkeqRAONOa8SMORfq6sPH9Jylar9Glh86opFVhSXzhb_A-Ee0SOxInWNeFIxy-DVwReg_LApjfYSGXxjdxM297CtU33TiFefLK7JvU/s1600/Screenshot_2018-10-01-09-40-39.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUEhVZsk4hwNQ1eUk-A8MImq_hVkA0l63F7YL26GkeqRAONOa8SMORfq6sPH9Jylar9Glh86opFVhSXzhb_A-Ee0SOxInWNeFIxy-DVwReg_LApjfYSGXxjdxM297CtU33TiFefLK7JvU/s320/Screenshot_2018-10-01-09-40-39.png" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghtpnbNJw5IWBCb1aY9iHcHOp79mHaxnlfaIXVKuK_NaOo4QwC_ESkihk4KKtTJnEI6m5u1SpEm_e00g5G4OxGZbdVf7YUmaeALVjio3rW14vrthxGOm9zo5gDtxyIUpRhw8Skf9mzFX0/s1600/IMG_20180930_231441_289.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="662" data-original-width="1080" height="196" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghtpnbNJw5IWBCb1aY9iHcHOp79mHaxnlfaIXVKuK_NaOo4QwC_ESkihk4KKtTJnEI6m5u1SpEm_e00g5G4OxGZbdVf7YUmaeALVjio3rW14vrthxGOm9zo5gDtxyIUpRhw8Skf9mzFX0/s320/IMG_20180930_231441_289.jpg" width="320" /></a></span><br />
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><br /><br />Here is my boi & me on a delicious rainy walk. 💚<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcjT45aEVEsvXQLfRmnI_i4-pCfzS_GrmTY8UkLnuIB7q0vXWVRUIwqWSF7NRQofc_2_0v0ltJP_JHx9y3MTih0nBzoBT8Di6ZXS-AiuRi7ZMt2BaTwxWAfNZ9ORL3SabqemaqFBmkoD4/s1600/20180930_171906.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcjT45aEVEsvXQLfRmnI_i4-pCfzS_GrmTY8UkLnuIB7q0vXWVRUIwqWSF7NRQofc_2_0v0ltJP_JHx9y3MTih0nBzoBT8Di6ZXS-AiuRi7ZMt2BaTwxWAfNZ9ORL3SabqemaqFBmkoD4/s320/20180930_171906.jpg" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCASCDkEeSlAl_C73wmvmahWhbRFnjLTDSFNBLELwKTgrj1eQUB9LthkV2MQGZadkMG8cA8Nifs8VmqpWD9y7pnr2jVjksUGGPqCuGkXRb7VHqhlYQU4CHbWwE0z7hm3ZHTLoAlmRQdes/s1600/20180930_174236.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCASCDkEeSlAl_C73wmvmahWhbRFnjLTDSFNBLELwKTgrj1eQUB9LthkV2MQGZadkMG8cA8Nifs8VmqpWD9y7pnr2jVjksUGGPqCuGkXRb7VHqhlYQU4CHbWwE0z7hm3ZHTLoAlmRQdes/s320/20180930_174236.jpg" width="160" /></a> </span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzLqa6QpXBJIhdnC9oWFVxL8E0tclAeL0X4DswAvAGfmVKt02ql-JipT8rAA8X8mKAaMBVAm5xfR1AEZULj7NytzmGAHBWFNJxBHqQhAOjDjAsbwnTqHE3_oRWHZX9IPze99d8b71gD24/s1600/IMG_20180930_174718_839.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="863" data-original-width="1600" height="215" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzLqa6QpXBJIhdnC9oWFVxL8E0tclAeL0X4DswAvAGfmVKt02ql-JipT8rAA8X8mKAaMBVAm5xfR1AEZULj7NytzmGAHBWFNJxBHqQhAOjDjAsbwnTqHE3_oRWHZX9IPze99d8b71gD24/s400/IMG_20180930_174718_839.jpg" width="400" /></a> </span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">I'm feeling good - as good as I can be, with chemo approaching.</span></div>
<br />
<div>
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">I was invited for a run this evening... I do feel like I need to do something before Tuesday, but don't want to disrupt the port either. I plan to get outside before every chemo treatment and be as active as I can during. Fingers crossed! ✌👍👌</span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br />Take care peeps xx<br /><br />PS I couldn't wash my hair after the port op so I eventually went to the hairdresser... whilst there, I she gave me an undercut & snipped off 4 inches! :)<br /><br />I've attended a Chemo Class and also a Look Good, Feel Better workshop.<br />So lucky!</span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizL97KWC2ZciEbb0faSiv7u_6HmrW4vIQ88Zaa968psJrjJKmMtQKYCLTFhzcLwIxntPTcuwceoytlxB9wNhWkXaN6XO_wsEhvzqFhAXs5J364C35OKTR1mCALR-hWvldiQqS1eMWuXYE/s1600/Snapchat-29708599.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizL97KWC2ZciEbb0faSiv7u_6HmrW4vIQ88Zaa968psJrjJKmMtQKYCLTFhzcLwIxntPTcuwceoytlxB9wNhWkXaN6XO_wsEhvzqFhAXs5J364C35OKTR1mCALR-hWvldiQqS1eMWuXYE/s320/Snapchat-29708599.jpg" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCnS1sZgsmlNKJPMnJZ7pgVu_BzSCjWWOGEF3OzkD3xArWM45BcqWWg6BWTg-MvS8NeEAvy_6fbQuPEOBwroHwiCb8gaaShvErqVOByI-09QVNGkZktjxw-HPSPKJdpYbairOKSgAm2I0/s1600/20181001_201738.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCnS1sZgsmlNKJPMnJZ7pgVu_BzSCjWWOGEF3OzkD3xArWM45BcqWWg6BWTg-MvS8NeEAvy_6fbQuPEOBwroHwiCb8gaaShvErqVOByI-09QVNGkZktjxw-HPSPKJdpYbairOKSgAm2I0/s320/20181001_201738.jpg" width="320" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFpSylbycXdrca9vr7g7xRX3xyNgZfEqb8dpMBm1J0GmdVVrQcF-SzgcvRdlnUEO5t-j4EnsKmpM9lFwR82rd0gV3S0TTtrRH8YHZ-dpXXP0SkoJl312IgsadJzRqJC4KxM8MEwPgAHMk/s1600/20181002_105716.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFpSylbycXdrca9vr7g7xRX3xyNgZfEqb8dpMBm1J0GmdVVrQcF-SzgcvRdlnUEO5t-j4EnsKmpM9lFwR82rd0gV3S0TTtrRH8YHZ-dpXXP0SkoJl312IgsadJzRqJC4KxM8MEwPgAHMk/s320/20181002_105716.jpg" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiStoBqNN9dLm1F00A_dYMPJ_sONXkfKDHLzpcebsja9Ps9n-Z2M4YNK9kaIxiXbTmudbXMxjOTh6p7pM3_cj_5ZjQT2i_HvvVpmOf6COnHxIV-76TmY8-ZcoY3c5JoyUyNC4Y4sxl_MRI/s1600/20181002_115948.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiStoBqNN9dLm1F00A_dYMPJ_sONXkfKDHLzpcebsja9Ps9n-Z2M4YNK9kaIxiXbTmudbXMxjOTh6p7pM3_cj_5ZjQT2i_HvvVpmOf6COnHxIV-76TmY8-ZcoY3c5JoyUyNC4Y4sxl_MRI/s320/20181002_115948.jpg" width="160" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEga4j_SkAn9xjVuJuTNOpKZ_38C0REEUDX5nNINm9FQnOhTt-AxHmGgxJ10l9ezmpB1hhSfyHFUPh6UGqVxilGPVD4rWZKhOesaGlN4eQITNxKngw55dZo1FkfqkQkyhqXOsi0dchA2AV0/s1600/20181002_120407.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEga4j_SkAn9xjVuJuTNOpKZ_38C0REEUDX5nNINm9FQnOhTt-AxHmGgxJ10l9ezmpB1hhSfyHFUPh6UGqVxilGPVD4rWZKhOesaGlN4eQITNxKngw55dZo1FkfqkQkyhqXOsi0dchA2AV0/s320/20181002_120407.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDciYjx5TJiWDujfFf2USdD0eYgnA9Jt7IRHg7ZnoCm-BHCPuJbIpdO5Owj9nWe7EmvbJD8XPF1iELoKQ4nFoyXsXyT4x-HJ06d-6BExYOGX_D6ZiIfreE_tJhlAgia6VzqKwGNKhr5nA/s1600/20181002_120803.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDciYjx5TJiWDujfFf2USdD0eYgnA9Jt7IRHg7ZnoCm-BHCPuJbIpdO5Owj9nWe7EmvbJD8XPF1iELoKQ4nFoyXsXyT4x-HJ06d-6BExYOGX_D6ZiIfreE_tJhlAgia6VzqKwGNKhr5nA/s320/20181002_120803.jpg" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAD7OAKXmTNZcS5eW0hKu2IMee6i-HihyphenhyphenpfKYziL6KsjGin8iwVfqOCohyphenhyphen6i0tbiFzVcqJ_IufqAk5UavxH96XukkNdOGEQKy5rECk7xxBAI2IzQK3HWOcfTV178gTOFonFXyYTXbNcyA/s1600/20181002_135023.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAD7OAKXmTNZcS5eW0hKu2IMee6i-HihyphenhyphenpfKYziL6KsjGin8iwVfqOCohyphenhyphen6i0tbiFzVcqJ_IufqAk5UavxH96XukkNdOGEQKy5rECk7xxBAI2IzQK3HWOcfTV178gTOFonFXyYTXbNcyA/s320/20181002_135023.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXiFlUUaRqIUm-cVMTJl28csmh3aEI6FSTN-zMnIj6r0MSNfBk_TTmCbmlVJxVmAV4UyBYCw47UVzyD1_r6S4W0HrmrCTM0R2MGvqDMb4rg79G90JsV0Yi_fgnLy3q7XLIPv_I38GXFFw/s1600/20181002_135028.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXiFlUUaRqIUm-cVMTJl28csmh3aEI6FSTN-zMnIj6r0MSNfBk_TTmCbmlVJxVmAV4UyBYCw47UVzyD1_r6S4W0HrmrCTM0R2MGvqDMb4rg79G90JsV0Yi_fgnLy3q7XLIPv_I38GXFFw/s320/20181002_135028.jpg" width="320" /></span></a></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiahMPOGZT_YUEOXpASbVz4v3J6dArulxfNfT1Q0LbCpNFP7-9zGXbdJ4x3tcO2SPbWPV0B-TpN8JD2DHmO8efNZon6p7ZaejYsWmehmNqMYsfDhkD8lNNXFbo1tVbtrVTdLnoFZkweSKE/s1600/Screenshot_2018-10-02-14-06-57.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiahMPOGZT_YUEOXpASbVz4v3J6dArulxfNfT1Q0LbCpNFP7-9zGXbdJ4x3tcO2SPbWPV0B-TpN8JD2DHmO8efNZon6p7ZaejYsWmehmNqMYsfDhkD8lNNXFbo1tVbtrVTdLnoFZkweSKE/s320/Screenshot_2018-10-02-14-06-57.png" width="160" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhstywjdF92_5PPE0x5m8dBCj7HkpR-15oM-Ea_rl4nxreknmiPeIWscKtVQ0HDHD2XtmnO0oobxAbSAkZdLR025jTTy70UE6Gc9L5Y65uxg11ZZVHYAfjOIhdu_v7ghTM-GXVoVEZK_Y4/s1600/Snapchat-218185858.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1352" data-original-width="676" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhstywjdF92_5PPE0x5m8dBCj7HkpR-15oM-Ea_rl4nxreknmiPeIWscKtVQ0HDHD2XtmnO0oobxAbSAkZdLR025jTTy70UE6Gc9L5Y65uxg11ZZVHYAfjOIhdu_v7ghTM-GXVoVEZK_Y4/s320/Snapchat-218185858.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><br /></span></div>
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><br /></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-51232368920643659892018-08-15T10:36:00.000-07:002018-08-15T10:37:30.231-07:00Head Stands & Head Space<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;">When you begin your year with a goal of achieving a headstand, but life has other plans for you... and surviving the year without dedicating your life to cancer (treatment) becomes the new goal, you kinda wish you'd done more headstand practice!</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;">These past few days/week is probably the least I have looked after myself... at a time when it's going to be paramount to pay attention and put the effort in to my health and well being.<br /><br />HG and I discovered a lump... so on Saturday 7th July, after being unable to get an appointment with my doctor Thursday or Friday, I went to a walk-in clinic on and was referred for tests at the hospital.<br /><br />It's barely been a month (Friday 13th July) since I had a Mammogram (ouch) & Ultrasound. They squeezed in a Biopsy of the lump at the same time, so things were sped up slightly, but the 6 day wait still felt like a decade.<br /><br />HG fell apart that night... he was sure it was Cancer, as they'd done a biopsy too, but I didn't feel emotional just yet and didn't want to panic until we knew for sure. Luckily he had already dealt, mentally, to a degree, and could catch me as I fell apart after speaking to my doctor after work on Thursday 19th July.<br /><br />I had Ductal Carcinoma. Never do you learn so much about something so fast than when you receive a diagnosis. These things happen to 'other people', including my Mum, 3yrs ago... everyone knows someone who has had cancer - many being breast cancer - and most these days are survivors.<br /><br />We can't assume things won't happen to us - I feel lucky that as shit as this is, it could be so much fucking worse. Two amazing women I was friends with in UK have died of cancer this year, too soon - so unfair.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-size: large;">It totally sucks.<br /><br />Anyway, here we are and it'll be 2 weeks tomorrow since my lumpectomy (2nd Aug). The surgeon also removed 3 lymph nodes but both he and my own Dr are away this week, helpfully, so I haven't received the results.<br /><br />I have an appointment next Wednesday (a week today) with the Cancer Centre - more tests to figure out the right treatment to suit my cancer. I have been told I'll be having chemotherapy, radiotherapy & will be on hormone treatment pills for a few years I suspect. I found some fellow peeps on Instagram who are lifting weights, being healthy etc. a couple of years after their treatment so fingers crossed that this journey doesn't take too much away from me/my lifestyle for too long.<br /><br />A definite up-side is the increased contact with soooo many lovely friends & family. Random friends from the past have been sending me packages, I get messages checking on me everyday and I am overwhelmed by the love.<br /><br />Oh yes and I also saw a genetic counsellor and will find out in the next couple of months whether I have a genetic disposition to breast/cancer. If so, new boobs may be in order!<br /><br />I have to say how AMAZING my wonderful HG has been - picking up the slack all over - he's sleeping well! :P I honestly couldn't ask for a better partner to go through this with - a friend even said the same.</span><span style="font-size: large;">My Mum & 3 teenage cousins landed 3 days after the operation. So things have been hectic, but I've squeezed in a few days of rest & plenty of fun.</span><span style="font-size: large;"><br />I cry most days. So much goes around my head. I'm awake in the early hours.<br />Also, I can only handle not working my muscles for so long. I think some squats, lunges and maybe some gentle yoga are coming up.<br /><br />I was just getting into movement, swinging from branches & monkey bars :D but that stuff will have to wait for meow.<br /><br />I've started meditation using the Headspace application - so nice!<br /><br />I started eating according to Keto (ketosis), following my diagnosis, but after surgery and during famjam visits, have let my discipline slide. Back on it next week!</span><span style="font-size: large;">Thanks fer reading. It's partly to get it outta my head.<br />Hope it's not too boring!</span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple; font-size: large;"><br />Big Love xXx</span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-91682342296350046182018-04-03T10:45:00.000-07:002018-04-03T10:45:19.472-07:00Who Where What Am I? Absorbing...<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Rediscover....<br /><br />The original purpose of my blog was, as the title suggests, was to write about what I'm learning.<br /><br />I had definitely lost sight of any direction - story of my life!<br /><br />We're all on a journey... some have more certainty about where they want to or are headed.<br /><br />I drift along. I meet people and absorb them - taking good, bad and naughty as I go. I am bad at saying no. I go with the flow.<br /><br />This year has been a bumble of fitness activity...<br />I firstly achieved my goal of actively doing a yoga class (online) every day for 30 days. This became a chore at times (i.e. after a 13hr work day), but I still loved every moment 'on the mat'. I have still been doing yoga each week, but not every day. (www.yogawithadriene.com)<br />Oh, I also explored veganism, but as with my ADD life, continued to go with the flow and eat a healthy balance of what's readily available in my world (i.e work, HG), but a little more conscientiously.<br /><br />I then found a 4wk eating plan by Betty Rocker, for $40 instead of $100... I have cooked a few things from the first week, but need to download week 2-4 :P (This was Feb, it's now April.)<br /><br />A girl I follow on Instagram, who I loveeeee - talks about making sex and self loving much less taboo. (I think I need to write a sex/erotica blog... hmmmm!). Anyway, this cool chick was giving away her sexual self love online course/programme for free. So I signed up for that - AND a chat group for yoga lovers, with Adriene. (I haven't participated either - just received thousands of emailssss gah.)<br /><br />At around the same time, a friend I'd recently started chatting to more (Scottish but lives back in Anglias), had recommended another online option - www.dailyom.com.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I signed up (option of paying $10, $20 or $30) and have been doing the 20 day challenge - Fit & Fierce over 40 (although I'm not 40 for 3yrs). I'm on Day 16 and I started it about 3 weeks ago :D I do it here and there. I was trying to do consecutive days - and will try again this week - but there is also a page of reading to do each day, so I like to make time for it. She (Sadi Nardini) follows a daily topic, with a quick inspiration video, a recipe and a written self-reflection/development exercise, as well as the 20min work out - during which, she uses the same few warm-ups & cool downs repeated, with a fresh snippit in the middle - they are nice little workouts. Kinda intensive yoga :) It's a pretty good deal.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">So all others fell to the wayside and this latter is the one I've been doing. It's always helpful to ask questions/figure/be aware of whats going on with oneself.<br /><br />Also this year, I have been discovering, befriending and learning from some other women on Instagram (definitely my favourite app - photos are still my favourite). The most recent, are a beautiful group who support and encourage each other. I have a couple of (newish) irl friends, who see and take guidance from a naturopath. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I have heard and read mention of Mercury being in Retrograde... I skimmed over it all a few time, then looked into it. I am trying to pay attention to interactions etc.<br /></span><span style="background-color: #fefefe;"><span style="color: #555555; font-family: Lato, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 18px;">Because Mercury is the planet situated closest to the Sun, its orbit is much shorter than Earth’s. About three or four times a year, Mercury speeds past Earth, and that is when we experience a Mercury retrograde period. If you were in a car and another car passed you, you could tell it was going faster than you. But if it slowed down and you then passed it, it would appear that that car was actually going backward. Then when the other car speeds up and passes you again, it kicks up all of the dust in the road. As Mercury speeds by, it is like a train flying past, creating a powerful, turbulent gust of “wind” in its wake. The turbulence and disruption Mercury creates when it retrogrades can affect what we feel on Earth in our everyday lives.</span></span><br /><span style="color: #555555; font-family: Lato, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 18px;">https://www.astrologyzone.com/everything-you-need-to-know-about-mercury-retrograde/</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br />These ladies, who love being outside in nature, adore and show gratitude to mother earth - appreciate this planet.<br />The girl I have known first/most is also re-approaching her Zero Waste journey. I have so so so so much time for people making the effort to start to save this beautiful planet and it's creatures.<br /><span style="color: #990000;"><br /></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #990000;"><u>Tangent:</u><br />I suppose my most loved topics (on IG) are Zero Waste, Childfree, Travel - seeing people's views of the world and then there's my kinky, wild, sexual side (which used to have it's own account, but now gets mostly suppressed or embraced through other avenues).<br /></span>These peeps are also users/believers in crystals - linked with energy; combined with tarot(?) cards, candles etc. - I still am unsure but very interested in learning (not so much about cards). People were putting out their washed crystals out for the full moon to renew and cleanse the energy. Fascinating.<br /><br />This is a long enough ramble and I finally hit my original point.<br /><br />Lots to learn. I'm also reading about alignment (of the human body) - I am definitely interested in ways to help me grow old whilst staying strong. If I die sooner, that's cool, but I intend to do what I can to avoid being in pain.</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYt5KxF56UZ-z-VzGclrS2aDDGMSMeR7yjNEpUeoBuwOEsYUxgxE8JxyNtbJcPPryuvvubTU3YNmRZwGvjGXr1ECrvsICHEwjA8AJG09vCH6pnPsK3myIQTLwdLd27jbqrhZSqRfBH_iI/s1600/20180401_010009.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYt5KxF56UZ-z-VzGclrS2aDDGMSMeR7yjNEpUeoBuwOEsYUxgxE8JxyNtbJcPPryuvvubTU3YNmRZwGvjGXr1ECrvsICHEwjA8AJG09vCH6pnPsK3myIQTLwdLd27jbqrhZSqRfBH_iI/s320/20180401_010009.jpg" width="160" /></a></div>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Oh also, I have been attending a triathlon group and have registered for my first race this summer!!<br /><br />I'll be swimming the 4km race again for a charity I know personally and possibly the more local (sprint) triathlon. Weeehooo!<br /><br />And maybe a Rubic's Cube Party again - for my 37th Birthday! Byeeee! Thanks for reading this far!<br /><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Yesterday in Parry Sound...</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDMWZzGXY3gnd6TJQ-12gfXsQjkQ5v6qSEOAv-l3Wn6E9JoioF8Q0ezwoFO1dE5dm9FRR5IdJqSEDu4HnZIedZFzXoTJpjT-dzJDxZ3Bhx_7pPDAAjs531srvu3a9DRHRJuopDCpFgrDc/s1600/20180402_171350_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDMWZzGXY3gnd6TJQ-12gfXsQjkQ5v6qSEOAv-l3Wn6E9JoioF8Q0ezwoFO1dE5dm9FRR5IdJqSEDu4HnZIedZFzXoTJpjT-dzJDxZ3Bhx_7pPDAAjs531srvu3a9DRHRJuopDCpFgrDc/s320/20180402_171350_HDR.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEin86CvbVtv5ImIIsE2YBjqczp4rOAsYVvEqLucKWLyYFiwn2cjk4aZVGGvMGxfwPo4lsI0qiuvhYaDb9t_HY-J32w9K9SWl6HCqCA2zlAweCQgzf040y29Kxyc1bS-hjwa4ARRyGgFUJQ/s1600/20180402_171353_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEin86CvbVtv5ImIIsE2YBjqczp4rOAsYVvEqLucKWLyYFiwn2cjk4aZVGGvMGxfwPo4lsI0qiuvhYaDb9t_HY-J32w9K9SWl6HCqCA2zlAweCQgzf040y29Kxyc1bS-hjwa4ARRyGgFUJQ/s320/20180402_171353_HDR.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLIZKa34HTbgszf4bpq2iwJnHxqEauhPnn-xsqET7YxvhBS4icY3ItMk11bsLz-DMxvlShimhORaphz_NMz2uW0lMDb2dhTxtmH1WZIFmf-IK55uzJqNmdq-UQai6UWwiMRmi_JcPHWW4/s1600/20180402_171007.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLIZKa34HTbgszf4bpq2iwJnHxqEauhPnn-xsqET7YxvhBS4icY3ItMk11bsLz-DMxvlShimhORaphz_NMz2uW0lMDb2dhTxtmH1WZIFmf-IK55uzJqNmdq-UQai6UWwiMRmi_JcPHWW4/s320/20180402_171007.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Last Week... the view from our drive.</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigpHT37rT_DmOOcclbP7seBCReOXbkQ8-X2JW9kV-mE-dqw8lw-KJqFdwz8J5Y9jO3tAT5THPIak8rNhWAT1Y4aqDEo55LCijxWJbNZgcW8mB1drOuW_BfcKTNnLvpLMB5hlOKuiZ8-fU/s1600/20180328_193420_HDR.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigpHT37rT_DmOOcclbP7seBCReOXbkQ8-X2JW9kV-mE-dqw8lw-KJqFdwz8J5Y9jO3tAT5THPIak8rNhWAT1Y4aqDEo55LCijxWJbNZgcW8mB1drOuW_BfcKTNnLvpLMB5hlOKuiZ8-fU/s640/20180328_193420_HDR.jpg" width="640" /></a></div>
<br />
<div>
<br /></div>
:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-61388356631398265272018-03-27T11:39:00.000-07:002018-03-27T11:41:12.928-07:00Mercury Retrograde Whaaaaat?!<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">Ponderings...<br /><br />I have had 2 days off with HG, which were lovely :) however I never get the housework/chores done (besides his work uniform cleaned). Now, my 3rd day off results in dealing with the trashed house after coming in and out, eating crap, hardly washing/tidying up etc. I'm always left with the boring shite... which I partly don't mind, especially now I'm back down to 2 jobs (I had picked up the 3rd - helping the family/parents with the mundane tasks).</span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcwj42QJ7brsJUZ0BoEBb67hqGDOmFrVMNVd_luI8-eM3AJO2un_aWxFXEjfiRVgOHYA9lpJQSgJvs4ERP7droLOZToj2tn-SdjJpPDgwHgEv1GVLfupGMJg6hqs8H1h3FzCd73YASDkg/s1600/20180325_170223.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcwj42QJ7brsJUZ0BoEBb67hqGDOmFrVMNVd_luI8-eM3AJO2un_aWxFXEjfiRVgOHYA9lpJQSgJvs4ERP7droLOZToj2tn-SdjJpPDgwHgEv1GVLfupGMJg6hqs8H1h3FzCd73YASDkg/s320/20180325_170223.jpg" width="160" /></a></div>
<br />
<br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuPd5ZqqV2WDLt8Osnm3huAzmRpQP_xxJG6_2dwMUL_Bb5ivsTR_uMDfcGuu99hvhwxIv6EXMpAFby0vqprR9eJHXVDlCdIbpy6tmIfycdbIuZhqNfpyhTTemgSiFOVx4Loz_GAA93DKU/s1600/20180325_200345.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuPd5ZqqV2WDLt8Osnm3huAzmRpQP_xxJG6_2dwMUL_Bb5ivsTR_uMDfcGuu99hvhwxIv6EXMpAFby0vqprR9eJHXVDlCdIbpy6tmIfycdbIuZhqNfpyhTTemgSiFOVx4Loz_GAA93DKU/s400/20180325_200345.jpg" width="400" /></a><br />
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />One task I am contemplating is getting myself organised and studying a course to help my career prospects here in Canada. I may have mentioned it previously in my ramblings; I think I've considered it at the start of each of the last couple of years but the timings, effort in how the feck to enrole and reluctance to spend more on education have prevented further steps. Another aspect that saddens me is having to give up nannying the cherub I am helping to nourish and grow.</span><br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaLpKdNpwJxvqjYeR_ks5PP91jDidRgPyqcUiDYHgXQvjGPXQmZ1Xsq3s4tFl46SNPXrz7W6CIq5QasNVCpOjF5s1l4XhfNs1hx_JARlppqWOh6VqI8nyOto-DS-OgXYW_lww_bGm1f5s/s1600/20180326_123302.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaLpKdNpwJxvqjYeR_ks5PP91jDidRgPyqcUiDYHgXQvjGPXQmZ1Xsq3s4tFl46SNPXrz7W6CIq5QasNVCpOjF5s1l4XhfNs1hx_JARlppqWOh6VqI8nyOto-DS-OgXYW_lww_bGm1f5s/s400/20180326_123302.jpg" width="200" /></a><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">The other thing in my head today is friends... I miss having friends around with whom I can connect and relax around. I have friends here, but I feel like I spend more time text/messaging them and making plans that rarely work out.<br /><br />We recently discussed possible transfer options, now that HG's place of work has been bought out by a different company. I feel sad on one hand, to leave this lovely town that has become our home, however I am ALWAYS up for new adventures, different places and meeting people.<br /><br />I sometimes think it's sad that I make friends then move along - it's hard to build strong networks, but there's sooo much to see!<br /><br />I rant a lot about zero waste; cups, bottles, straws & bags.<br />Maybe people get fed up with this and are less keen to spend time with me. I can't think of anyone nearby atm who feels as saddened as I do by the way we treat the planet.<br /><br />Today I want to make more moisturiser (coconut oil & essential oils) and make my own deodorant - I follow an AWESOME soul on Instagram, who tries so hard everyday to lead a zero waste lifestyle.<br /><br />I also want to take further steps towards applying to college.<br /><br />And get to Bulk Barn - where you can take your own containers - hallelujah!!<br /><br />I love my HG and there's no-one I'd rather hang out with - most of the time, but he doesn't arrange things with anyone else which puts a lot of pressure on me to be his friend, lover, wife, housemate etc etc.</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">I keep reading a lot about 'Mercury Retrograde'. I have made a few spiritual/wiccan friends on Instagram and it's all still very new to me. The moon and planets MUST have an effect on us though, right?</span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br />They say now is a great time to rethink re-do, revisit that which needs attention. Communication: internal and external. A time to create new patterns of thinking; rethink choices and try to fully utilise the wisdom of the past, to create an even better future.<br /><br />It's so time consuming to work on oneself; how do people have time for offspring? :P<br /><br />Thoughts welcome!!<br /><br />Love & Light </span><br />
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcwj42QJ7brsJUZ0BoEBb67hqGDOmFrVMNVd_luI8-eM3AJO2un_aWxFXEjfiRVgOHYA9lpJQSgJvs4ERP7droLOZToj2tn-SdjJpPDgwHgEv1GVLfupGMJg6hqs8H1h3FzCd73YASDkg/s1600/20180325_170223.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><br /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKcj9XClA5HQxWnKhQ34fbxyqdJuCyzAoX2u5iKYdh2awGrd34EwOFm5wMuNUzE1dmK_JSGXseDAYg6UZSlgW7nUiIq0pqpj0wHYsYesu9TSQN8MJxrdCr6IY2A1-nnyq2MvkeZA2hIQw/s1600/20180326_154213.mp4" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="900" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKcj9XClA5HQxWnKhQ34fbxyqdJuCyzAoX2u5iKYdh2awGrd34EwOFm5wMuNUzE1dmK_JSGXseDAYg6UZSlgW7nUiIq0pqpj0wHYsYesu9TSQN8MJxrdCr6IY2A1-nnyq2MvkeZA2hIQw/s320/20180326_154213.mp4" width="180" /></a></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguiSv1jByqWSqpNvNeYlNpqdrZ_jIjHgcAdgmKVMTeQwtzfnwzia_t36TyO77nopyz104FskPk69cscl_GceV4tkEKXQJ2axej3DOH03V9stmxKe6r0n2uGbZnl49PlADr7kDAKaUMANI/s1600/20180326_153340.mp4" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="900" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguiSv1jByqWSqpNvNeYlNpqdrZ_jIjHgcAdgmKVMTeQwtzfnwzia_t36TyO77nopyz104FskPk69cscl_GceV4tkEKXQJ2axej3DOH03V9stmxKe6r0n2uGbZnl49PlADr7kDAKaUMANI/s320/20180326_153340.mp4" width="180" /></a></div>
<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-12131317249122665772018-03-12T18:49:00.000-07:002018-03-27T11:42:27.533-07:00Coffee vs Sleep<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;">I don't like coffee. I don't understand why 90% people seem to. Especially here in American-influenced Canada (not meaning this offensively; tis the way of tings).<br /><br />Before I get started on the waste of disposable, one-use cups, I would be annoyed with myself, if I had such a dependency on something (people use a variety of drugs to get through the day) that I'd join a line of cars, queing down the road, for a drink of brown fluid... there are endless jokes and memes about not approaching people before they've had their first cup of java.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><br />There has been a lot of talk (in my influence/discovery circle anyway), about Self-Love. One way to love oneself, which comes up repeatedly - and which I can now monitor, thanks to my FeeBee, my Fitbit (or FilBert, I'm undecided!) - is to provide yourself with the opportunity to rest, relax and sleep. Sleep can add years to your life... through our decision to refrain from having children, the only things keeping us awake are our nocturnal outdoor kitty, outdoor noises (minimal since the school has been finished & we got double glazing) and the neighbour getting nailed upstairs!<br /><br />A recent discussion with HG lead to the idea that people who are maybe less than content with their current position/circumstances (life) etc. don't sleep as well. I'd add that health may lead to more/less sleep too. A catch 22: unhappiness leads to less sleep and less sleep (could potentially) lead to further unhappiness.<br /><br />I understand it's easier said than done to 'get more sleep'.<br /><br />Russell Brand says that meditation is what saves him from himself each day... in not so many words... I'm hearing similar things more and more... and am totally in love with yoga - I'd thunk up a blog on the topic...<br /><br />Anyway I'll sign off. HG said I would offend people by questioning/dissing coffee - it's so many people's crutch.<br /><br />Whatever. Maybe some people will question it. idc<br />Or at least work on using a reusable cup - we need companies to enable, support and encourage such behaviour!<br /><br />TTFN my lovelies xXx<br /></span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEge0pt-aCCCPr_NHLbGJpMFUHw-tV3G4yncQNocgdnCZvC5oXnReOHblmB8tY4oix1iWKH8zpCfDXAfGfU7_lpCMrwx2m336cHUyOcaxb_0aGuT3hFxUxUvrr0Y8qqsoRpYwmLp4VMFYLs/s1600/20180310_212017.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEge0pt-aCCCPr_NHLbGJpMFUHw-tV3G4yncQNocgdnCZvC5oXnReOHblmB8tY4oix1iWKH8zpCfDXAfGfU7_lpCMrwx2m336cHUyOcaxb_0aGuT3hFxUxUvrr0Y8qqsoRpYwmLp4VMFYLs/s320/20180310_212017.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />HG birthday meal - The Mill on Main, Huntsville</span></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOA5lG3uT8YC15KfMZG6K9-nUDOZtV7eysFdwEEavAz2z7l_BUMC9ZsLuQfF_BfVotXx2sXUIVGuTuo6PgzffnKjOT6N0a24P2qqZ5TIuZp-U1DLxTcF_to1tSqvBm7sv9r8sK0f_7gQI/s1600/20180312_200238.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOA5lG3uT8YC15KfMZG6K9-nUDOZtV7eysFdwEEavAz2z7l_BUMC9ZsLuQfF_BfVotXx2sXUIVGuTuo6PgzffnKjOT6N0a24P2qqZ5TIuZp-U1DLxTcF_to1tSqvBm7sv9r8sK0f_7gQI/s320/20180312_200238.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />HG & Puss :)</span></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXqCjnZpUAfdnEpXjKHpbX6jrIznm9v1fkQnnWiOcfEp115zihs7Sm6HxH5b9vVDQ3eGCqzEXnbSYOmz8WP_1h-HseL8rYxuxcOREA_TL79OqIHmkB1N4dKJ0Q7ZgxGoauyd6YNmDDWm8/s1600/20180311_151052.mp4" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="900" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXqCjnZpUAfdnEpXjKHpbX6jrIznm9v1fkQnnWiOcfEp115zihs7Sm6HxH5b9vVDQ3eGCqzEXnbSYOmz8WP_1h-HseL8rYxuxcOREA_TL79OqIHmkB1N4dKJ0Q7ZgxGoauyd6YNmDDWm8/s320/20180311_151052.mp4" width="180" /></a><br />Adventure hike 11/03/18</span></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiab7LC9UP-xOt60ZaIjK2WhnwYb3Jrj_y-M6JFkCvVCSFyPBYmi4bOpxBeo5DTap53xhvrCPWuFd9U2ykzGu_sLOGOQ6FwlOAYbaGO2DckvBQ0fMVBj5sQShWxle9vpsL_Z1OQkYIyuSc/s1600/20180310_090719.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1105" data-original-width="1600" height="221" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiab7LC9UP-xOt60ZaIjK2WhnwYb3Jrj_y-M6JFkCvVCSFyPBYmi4bOpxBeo5DTap53xhvrCPWuFd9U2ykzGu_sLOGOQ6FwlOAYbaGO2DckvBQ0fMVBj5sQShWxle9vpsL_Z1OQkYIyuSc/s320/20180310_090719.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />Blast from the Past... 2009ish?</span></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjvllTmn52dFhyphenhyphen8nuGuTsHD0jrm9wBSWiYK3CY8atdwfhoxZE-HxmSiJkHKYEUYxvqzVWU1wWtZWOoAUk4hBLBfRyukjUVNuF87Jqax1dP012lWGnVPY5qt0f99RMck4anPXzoXh440mOE/s1600/20180310_152458.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjvllTmn52dFhyphenhyphen8nuGuTsHD0jrm9wBSWiYK3CY8atdwfhoxZE-HxmSiJkHKYEUYxvqzVWU1wWtZWOoAUk4hBLBfRyukjUVNuF87Jqax1dP012lWGnVPY5qt0f99RMck4anPXzoXh440mOE/s320/20180310_152458.jpg" width="160" /></a><br />Me a la weekend :D</span></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiXW-bVmHSvPjmn8ZcXKqhzyPqaGpaD1Ka-mULKZsY8KbivpE-yiUScqRnUBdwkuk_EWKot8Im5Z3jPfl1NzSw2T-yGi9CDnZmX8R73bjM0_ODpw56c3CZdA0YoZ4KE-b282qT5Zg-o_vU/s1600/20180311_135505.mp4" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="900" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiXW-bVmHSvPjmn8ZcXKqhzyPqaGpaD1Ka-mULKZsY8KbivpE-yiUScqRnUBdwkuk_EWKot8Im5Z3jPfl1NzSw2T-yGi9CDnZmX8R73bjM0_ODpw56c3CZdA0YoZ4KE-b282qT5Zg-o_vU/s320/20180311_135505.mp4" width="180" /></a><br />Yesterday's Ice Cave - Breathtaking!!</span></span></div>
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><br /><br /><b>P.S.</b><br />Mini update on last blog - I know mine never flow!<br /><br />I did, gently encourage the Mum to let bubs sleep... he has been getting increasingly better at sleeping for longer etc. Last I knew he was improving, however I haven't worked for them for the past 2-3 weeks.</span></div>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><br /><br /></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-71348267182597909502018-02-05T17:55:00.001-08:002018-02-05T17:55:23.944-08:00"Have you got everything you need?"<span style="font-size: large;">Random thoughts I wrote ages ago & never finished...<br /><br /><br />I have been working in the hospitality/food & beverage/restaurant industry for over two years now. Whilst this was never my initial intention, I have been grateful for the learning experiences.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-size: large;">For example, my memory has improved! I'm better at thinking on my feet... and speaking clearly/confidently :)<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Why is it a tippable job (and therefore lower hourly pay) to serve people food, but not to pack your bags in a supermarket or help you with sizes/location in a clothing store/shop?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I try to enjoy and take away learning from all roles, circumstances and experiences, as well as from the people I meet along my journey.</span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7038960434811431146.post-52421865007731548482018-02-05T17:52:00.001-08:002018-03-12T17:56:01.984-07:00Mary Poppins was the original Super Nanny<span style="font-size: large;">Yo Mofos.<br /><br />Still blogging in my head) as I swim, wash up, make beds, chop veg etc etc etc... one day they'll be able to record thoughts maybe... scary.<br /><br />HG and I are dog sitting in a huge house on the lake :D<br /><br />He had a minor oral surgery this morning then I raced about while he slept off the drugs around; between dogs, cat & 2 drives to shovel, it's been busy... dinner, a lake snow shoe sesh with dawgs and cooking dinner & banana pancakes then cleaning/washing up. Finally sitting, moved money around etc etc.<br /><br />ANYHOO!! (We're sitting at a huge granite bar, HG playing lime in the coconut song :D think he's feeling better!)<br /><br />My 3rd job which I picked up reluctantly, having been recommended by my current employer (all health professionals), I've been doing since about October/November last year. Having mentioned paying $15-18 then offering me $15, I felt a tad insulted.<br /><br />The position currently entails walking the pooch (LOvE him!!), washing up/putting away, food prep (chopping, some cooking), folding & putting away laundry, washing/drying/changing bedding.<br /><br />I love the family but I get home on my 'day off' and resent my own 'chores'...<br /><br />They have a baby... he was 2 months old when I started helping the family and he's not sleep trained.... or anywhere near. So he cries. Because he's exhausted. Last time I was there, his eyes were so red. But he hadn't slept properly the night before - when he usually sleeps better. I want to suggest leaving him to cry/sleep and if he wakes before an hour, leave him to fall back to sleep. The father, having worked nightshift, takes him to basement spare bedroom and they 'nap together' then picks him up again as soon as he wakes (usually 10-30mins).<br /><br />I was thinking whilst folding their clothes, maybe I should offer a nanny/parenting assistant/advice type service. Super Nanny type thing... but it's their 3rd child; who am I to help people get routines and sleep sorted? And maybe I couldn't either.<br /><br />My main employer began sleep training our wee munchkin when I began helping as a 'Nanny', Bubs aged 4 months (now 15 months) -a year ago next week. I followed her guidance (laaaarge house helped, as it will when other family move into their new lakehouse) and allowed Bubs to cry - recognising protest cries and responding as/when. The Mum trusts me to make judgement calls and whilst Bubs naps (or doesn't), I prepare/cook/clean/organise etc etc. Potter about :).<br /><br />My 2nd job is serving at a fun, easy, laid back restaurant. :-D<br /><br />When I think of the next few years, we'll be staying here while we pay things off and travel to parts of Canada from here I think... our goal is New Zealand... OR learn German and head to Europe.<br /><br />Once wee munchkin starts school, the semi-plans sitting on the back burner are OPP (Ont Provincial Police) - dispatch (should I get through the tests etc.) or studying Addiction and seeking a job in that area. There is a 1 year course in this town <3<br /><br />This is a long rammmmble of bollocks, I am grateful if you made it this far! :0)<br /><br />Love Yeeeewz xXx</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0Zc1B_yODPwIcwb1TuSmcA0MryaUDmawS-1HrHKWPFgJtoyo43duSoB0pZbC30jNEO2HGhIwwVoxOo003r4CLS1qhxQw-Oz7pivAfbam0tkwAPCRJzcWOa7lvLMliZtcLbmlbDA8xhO8/s1600/20180203_104823.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0Zc1B_yODPwIcwb1TuSmcA0MryaUDmawS-1HrHKWPFgJtoyo43duSoB0pZbC30jNEO2HGhIwwVoxOo003r4CLS1qhxQw-Oz7pivAfbam0tkwAPCRJzcWOa7lvLMliZtcLbmlbDA8xhO8/s320/20180203_104823.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWIW5dXFjfI3Kh5paM4YEW26CznCWLCjpaSKAcWiWRbp1Knwr-LYe7JCjrkrOl9f6baKzSddCKQudRuKUJ7vqMHmdLwHhvAmG7-5aYIzIsr_-xlQlyScVJVkFYMggDUhp0q9t0OYU0Hk0/s1600/20180203_181045.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWIW5dXFjfI3Kh5paM4YEW26CznCWLCjpaSKAcWiWRbp1Knwr-LYe7JCjrkrOl9f6baKzSddCKQudRuKUJ7vqMHmdLwHhvAmG7-5aYIzIsr_-xlQlyScVJVkFYMggDUhp0q9t0OYU0Hk0/s320/20180203_181045.jpg" width="320" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTxKaNM4Fg59AFC_MjxxYL-Wdy3G1zMWSlTN0WTY0O7CmP0cB0ZoIRDbBgXbOQtgZQT5xQ89BoeSBAvDt0HNyzSjpSgtcGJBYrdlN305sCg3zO40hVG9WTYnKATSwN32ZY8f_qhonsL_s/s1600/20180203_223301.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1600" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTxKaNM4Fg59AFC_MjxxYL-Wdy3G1zMWSlTN0WTY0O7CmP0cB0ZoIRDbBgXbOQtgZQT5xQ89BoeSBAvDt0HNyzSjpSgtcGJBYrdlN305sCg3zO40hVG9WTYnKATSwN32ZY8f_qhonsL_s/s320/20180203_223301.jpg" width="320" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPnlzKxXqJOqdmcvIkTPobVhADcxfndiViy3LpXZIUak6xApDCGtohqF8t4yOotq1_SelLAHFqI8dZ0NoBXcqU4f8qTtJ0fhsfHQx2RR6iu0fFXPovUxilxnLR3YZMrDMkgAhhP1yE5q4/s1600/20180204_071319.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPnlzKxXqJOqdmcvIkTPobVhADcxfndiViy3LpXZIUak6xApDCGtohqF8t4yOotq1_SelLAHFqI8dZ0NoBXcqU4f8qTtJ0fhsfHQx2RR6iu0fFXPovUxilxnLR3YZMrDMkgAhhP1yE5q4/s320/20180204_071319.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhmOEK3CvQtKjocqh7LNRJHGc698RICTDTkPb6ezcGp3fFHExyPaNgbzd1Lv_gDGYTdzZmMcFeZVr5llAm2FB2vTYYUANO7wVSMgmNY4OCvfVvrzwy3HQ7EUU3s-As5OgFUPZAz4MWxC5c/s1600/20180204_151954.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhmOEK3CvQtKjocqh7LNRJHGc698RICTDTkPb6ezcGp3fFHExyPaNgbzd1Lv_gDGYTdzZmMcFeZVr5llAm2FB2vTYYUANO7wVSMgmNY4OCvfVvrzwy3HQ7EUU3s-As5OgFUPZAz4MWxC5c/s320/20180204_151954.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkmAXHqUG2Xj7FSud02cHeV9Xzt40O6_yfG2tSEPPs6mJc928rc3dflOBxMek0zONvzhlA2nmPRPHc4F191i345CwP8834wWo4pXMpXth-_LyMfXp3wX5zlx3pYoAYrd6N5SceJtXU1OI/s1600/20180205_122003.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkmAXHqUG2Xj7FSud02cHeV9Xzt40O6_yfG2tSEPPs6mJc928rc3dflOBxMek0zONvzhlA2nmPRPHc4F191i345CwP8834wWo4pXMpXth-_LyMfXp3wX5zlx3pYoAYrd6N5SceJtXU1OI/s320/20180205_122003.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvwJKKXpj-w1jvrKzBZrcQ6nSAIj-yrNEBisbKwg9pBFeHEz0URM_07uNA_h0m5FyCWJhQxUvtD1va_zFjjt0KMO4PJt7n3GsuyWojyfLvnOjr-VAQl2AunuqOzsRPyMCVoyH2v-euECI/s1600/20180205_122008.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvwJKKXpj-w1jvrKzBZrcQ6nSAIj-yrNEBisbKwg9pBFeHEz0URM_07uNA_h0m5FyCWJhQxUvtD1va_zFjjt0KMO4PJt7n3GsuyWojyfLvnOjr-VAQl2AunuqOzsRPyMCVoyH2v-euECI/s320/20180205_122008.jpg" width="160" /></a></span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /><br /></span>:-D Bubble Beehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15257391900204410186noreply@blogger.com0